Although my Christmas basically sucked, it was a huge learning experience. I learned alot about myself just by being more observant to what was said/done around me.
First off....xmas eve at work, everyone was in a good mood and joking around. I guess it was 'tease jade day'. Everyone started talking about the times I went out partying with them. It turned into me being called an 'alcoholic in denial' by my co-workers. They thought it was funny, and meant no harm, but it really hurt. Later, I realized it hurt so much cause it's the truth.
Second, on xmas day, one of the gifts for me was a bottle of jack daniels, from a family member. She thought she was being nice, afterall, I always bought a 20 oz. bottle of pepsi, poured it out and filled it with jack to make the family get-togethers more tolerable. I didn't accept her gift. I told her thanks, but I didn't want it. It made me realize when family thinks of me and Christmas, they think of me and drinking..... and it hurt.
Third, I normally take muscle relaxers the night before Christmas, so that I have that groggy, out of it feeling the next day. I didn't take any this year. I didn't drink, I didn't take any pills and I actually survived.
So even though everything else sucked and I spent alot of time crying....at least I learned a few things.