@Florian7051 -- Kudos to you for having made progress in anger management as well ^^
Since my initial curiosity revolved around what people have done/would be willing to do in order to overcome their fear of, for example intimacy, I have to ask how far you’d go to effectively reach an emotional connection with your wife? Perhaps what
@Sighs said could give you some hope that your wife may show you acceptance rather than take it personal :)
Ya might not want to hear it from a feckless clown like meself, but for whatever it’s worth, it makes sense to miss war if it showed you what it means to be alive, especially when civilian life is unable to provide the same sense of purpose, unity and pride in sacrifice. If you experienced both the best and worst of what life has to offer with your brothers, then no wonder it’s hard to connect with civilians who almost uniformly accept that ignorance is bliss (no offense toward civilians, dammit).
As a side note: ever since I was a kid, the concept of war seemed more attractive than enduring a crap civilian life for nil reason; maybe the Winter War stories served as influence. Anyway, now that people talk of an impending European ‘civil war’, well, let’s just say I’m one of few muppets saying “thank fvck” with a genuine sense of relief.
Furthermore, this site is much about the soapbox, isn’t it? If you’re on here, then the soapbox is yours for as long as you need it, eh; if nothing else, it might inspire others to mount it. Hopefully I get the soapbox reference correctly, but if not, I blame Ikea :tup: