My Bad Feelings Are Back

[Secretgirl]

I feel so bad right now, I feel like nobody ever cares as much about me as I do about them I just want to make everyone happy and nobody even cares how they make me feel. I feel like nobody wants to take the time to ask if I'm okay or if they do they don't actually care to help me feel better, everyone comes to me for advise and I never get any. I think My parents care about my siblings more than me and it makes me feel like I'm not wanted anywhere at all. It's Christmas and I'm crying all alone in my room nobody even knocked on my door and All my friends are busy with each other to care about me. I feel like I'm going to be alone forever or nobody will care about me enough to stay with me and it scares me I don't want to feel so alone anymore nobody understands and I don't think they care enough to try to. I just want to give up and not have to try to be happy I just want to finish everything so no more bad things will happen to me or make me feel worse I don't know how much more I could take if I even can

 

[Forgetful]

I have no advise to give but I want to let you know you're not alone. I can relate. Right now I'm trying very hard to not fall into the deep dark hole that put me in the hospital for 3 months 6 years ago.

You will feel better if you keep fighting it and working towards that goal. Be kind to yourself and take care of yourself. Sometimes it's easier and better to just keep some distance from certain people

Keep fighting.

 

[Born to Run]

Just know that you are not alone ok. Many of us here do not have the 'normal' Christmas experience with family, and it makes it a difficult time. Also realise that there are a lot of 'normal' family gatherings that seem like nice on the outside, but are plain disasters on the inside. Maybe we are stronger by not faking anything, although it comes with a price.

Keep strong.