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My Brutal , Honest , Angry , Opinion . . .

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sarahts

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Right , Sometimes i write things then i read them back and think to myself ''i rushed that and my true feeling isnt conveyed'' so here goes another try...

I dont have ''parents'' any more , so this isnt about them its about some other people in this worl / my life who i realis actually arnt supportive . . . . .

'' You cover yourself in all these tattoos to try and be someone else when your amazing as you are'' , my reply would be ''oh , i like them'' but no infact what i truley think is this:

'' Im not out to please you , im not living my life to make you happy , Im covering my skin in these amazing images of art because i love them , They show who i am and there part of me , they are my comfort , my honesty and my pride . . . These tattoos are worth more to me than you could ever know because they are marks ill have on my skin of thigs that mean the world to me such as my mum and past experiances and my future dreams , im proud to display them and no i will not cover them up to look ''normall'' . . . ''

''Whats the point in listning to this angry music , surley soothing things like ''enya'' (f*ck that) would help you more'' - My honest reply would be :

'' Im a metal head / mosher / punk , howther you want to describe it. And no listning to ENYA would drive me mad. This music touches the soul in me , it mooves me , it soothes me and it relates to me....just the way maby the sound of dolphins and water would help them''

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH much better.
 
I can relate. I also have a number of tattoos that people think are covering the 'real' me, and I listen to loud, angry music that people think should really be Classical, or the dreaded Enya. They want to know if it's me, or the PTSD that does these things... you can't separate them, sorry. The PTSD has been there so long, it is a part of me, and I don't know any different.

The music is part of my soul, and the tats are part of my exoskeleton.
 
There 's a thread here somewhere about tattooing being used as "self-harm"....do you put tattooing in that category at all?
 
Tattooing for many is an expression of art. So one kids draws cartoons on their arm over and over again with a sharpie. I and many others get tired of doing it over and over again and just get it put there permanently. Plus I like the fact that it ticks off my mother.
 
obviously lol. I'm trying to save up some money to get a new customized one. Kinda hard to do when you have no income. Came close a couple of times but failed. I will get my new tat eventually. Mwahahahahahaha!
 
In answer to your question.I personaly would not say tattooing was self harm (but im slightly bias as i am a tattooist at my local parlour :/) for me yes it includes pain , but not the kind of pain i search for in a sudden fit of anger . . . so for me personally i can see it being self harm.
 
ok so ive just been thinking a little more about that question . . . Iknow some of the regular clients i Have do ''like'' the pain of tattooing , but im not sure if that would be self harm.....its an interesting question.
 
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