My Calling

[sonicwhite]

Quote, but testing people as a matter of course can become its own problematic thing.


I understand Alba, sometimes I get so frustrated with ppl who constantly do this. Sometimes I just cut them off and let them believe what they want. So I will just say I appreciate the insight of Gods word given to me. And I will always never judge you. please I know I come off as that but I always end my posts saying I hope I'm not offending anyone or I'm not judging you.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

My dad thinks that Ted Bundy is in heaven because he accepted "god" before he died. :cautious:

Sorry, thats sorta off topic. Just what came to mind when reading this...

 

[sonicwhite]

Their where three crosses. Christ in the middle the one on the right was sorrowful and the one on the left scorned God. The one on the right asked Jesus to remember him in heaven. Christ said surely this day you'll be with me in Paradise. The one on the left said if your the Son of God take yourself down and save yourself. His eyes where plucked out by Ravens. Or blackbirds. So yes someone who is truly sorrowful for the life they lived can go to heaven on the death bed. But don't expect to live a life of sin and say well if I'm in that rut where I almost will die I'll just ask God to forgive me. You have to be truly sorry for the sins you've committed you have to realize that you where wrong your whole life and you almost have to accept that he'll is where your going.


God than will justify you.


When I was minutes from death I thought the same way, I thought well I'll just ask God to forgive me. God is not a fool. I survived to tell people that accept Jesus now, exprecially while your young because the older folks get the more hard their hearts become. I'm here today because I screamed in that ambulance that I didn't want to die.



I suffered for seven months the most grueling delusions. I thought I was going to be chopped up by cannibals. I really thought there where zombies around and I was going to get eaten alive.


After this I wondered about death almost everyday. What was the meaning to life? Christ convicted me a year later of His second coming. The judgment. So I said I want to know You so much that I would love to be apart of Your bible. Today I'm here thankful that God said instead of wrath I will show Mercy on him. I never felt so much love then I did when I gave the wheel to the Lord and let Him steer my life.


In 08 I desired to go back to the life I lived in sin. Ten minutes after I decided in my heart I was going to go back I got hit with a massive wave after wave of anxiety. God is not going to allow me to turn away. I am still suffering from the decision of wanting to turn my back on God. But I have learned so much thru this suffering. God is good. God is so beautiful in my eyes. No one or anything in the universe can separate me from the Lord. The Father gave me to Jesus and as a sheep he had to whip me with His rod to show me His love.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Im glad "god" is helping you @sonicwhite!

 

[sonicwhite]

It's therapy to help others. The way I see it, I feel led to share what wisdom I have recieved. I'm not boasting of anything I did, what all I did was destroy many people's lives. But what Christ did was take the penalty and scratch off the dept so now I can live a free life in Christ. I want others to be inspired by what God does in my life.



All of this talk is therapy for me. I have wanted to witness and I see now I have been doing it the whole time. That in itself brings me joy.