BlueWeepingRose
Silver Member
I love pizza.
I love movies.
I love music.
I love my family.
I love my friends.
I love my hobbies and interests.
When it comes to falling in love, I have a hard time. Even when it comes to sexual things. Ever since I was raped, things just seem sort of distorted and I'm not able to get close to any guy in that way. Many people told me that I need to move past this. It happened in 2017 by my ex boyfriend who I loved so much and I trusted him. Since than I've had guys who told me they liked me, but in the end half of them only wanted sex and it disgusted me. I didn't want no part of it. I don't want to be seen as some kind of sex object. Anytime a guy looks at me in some sexual way, I'm turned off. I know this happens. But for me, I just don't like it. I don't see myself being in a relationship anytime soon or even having sex for that matter. Right now I'm deeply hurt and in pain enough by the flashback's, anxiety and the depression I have. I don't want to get hurt again. People told me that I need to go back out there and just find the right person, the right guy. I'm not ready. I don't know if I will. Maybe I will be ready one day. Maybe I won't ever. I can't predict the future. But right now I'm grossed out by sex, by people touching me or hugging me. The only time I don't mind it is if my family hugs me. Besides that, I don't like to be touched. I'm not a sex object. I'm more than a sex object. There's been guys sometimes on Facebook just randomly messaging me and asking me for a nude, ugh... I don't mind being friends with a guy and I don't hate men at all. I just am not ready. Hope I'm expressing myself right. I don't want people thinking negative by this post. This has been on my mind a lot lately and needed to get this out of my system. So thank you for reading this if you have and I hope you can understand on some level to how I feel. Thank you.
I love movies.
I love music.
I love my family.
I love my friends.
I love my hobbies and interests.
When it comes to falling in love, I have a hard time. Even when it comes to sexual things. Ever since I was raped, things just seem sort of distorted and I'm not able to get close to any guy in that way. Many people told me that I need to move past this. It happened in 2017 by my ex boyfriend who I loved so much and I trusted him. Since than I've had guys who told me they liked me, but in the end half of them only wanted sex and it disgusted me. I didn't want no part of it. I don't want to be seen as some kind of sex object. Anytime a guy looks at me in some sexual way, I'm turned off. I know this happens. But for me, I just don't like it. I don't see myself being in a relationship anytime soon or even having sex for that matter. Right now I'm deeply hurt and in pain enough by the flashback's, anxiety and the depression I have. I don't want to get hurt again. People told me that I need to go back out there and just find the right person, the right guy. I'm not ready. I don't know if I will. Maybe I will be ready one day. Maybe I won't ever. I can't predict the future. But right now I'm grossed out by sex, by people touching me or hugging me. The only time I don't mind it is if my family hugs me. Besides that, I don't like to be touched. I'm not a sex object. I'm more than a sex object. There's been guys sometimes on Facebook just randomly messaging me and asking me for a nude, ugh... I don't mind being friends with a guy and I don't hate men at all. I just am not ready. Hope I'm expressing myself right. I don't want people thinking negative by this post. This has been on my mind a lot lately and needed to get this out of my system. So thank you for reading this if you have and I hope you can understand on some level to how I feel. Thank you.
