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My husband died today

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I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm really sorry for your loss and the circumstances of his passing away.

Your post on my wall has given me so much comfort. I wish I could do the same for you but I really am at a loss.

One of the most important people in my life passed away years ago. My response was to put on a brave face, hide the pain, numb my feelings, show everyone I was strong inside. It was a mask for weakness because I felt my world falling apart. I literally did not know what to do. Please do not do what I did. It is ok to feel whatever you feel at this time. And it is ok to let it out. Please let it out. Don't make the same mistake I did. It is a hard behaviour to break because the internalisation becomes you.

Thoughts are with you Medic.
 
He committed suicide. I don't know what I'm going to do now.

Broken

A white snow owl is sitting in a tree.
I look at him, he's looking at me.
Locking eyes with mine, assessing my soul.
Over this invasion, I have no control.
Just as I can keep my gaze locked no more,
This white owl sheds tears, down they pour.
He has sensed it, felt it, my overwhelming pain,
Out the tears flow, out of his huge beautiful eyes, like rain.
Inhaling and exhaling, weeping release of grief,
A white snow owl, broken beyond belief.
 
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OMG! This has come out of the blue and my heart goes out to you in such a huge way. I wish I could sit with you and help you for support.

I did not see this one coming and I am so sorry that you have this tragedy to deal with on top of everything else. You are in my heart and prayers and best wishes for you to remember to eat.

Please follow your heart and take the best care of yourself that you are able to right now. I am so very sorry that he did this.

I lost my husband almost three years ago but he died. I cannot imagine how difficult this is to face and deal with.

It is all so surreal and I do not understand why he did this. I pray for inner strength for you to be able to deal with everything involved in this situation.

Geez, I am just so shocked and stunned. Get some rest as you are able. You are not alone because you have us to talk to. Pm me anytime if you are interested ok?

Many healing hugs and prayers. I am so very sorry that this happened and I wish for support for you from a safe person.

Call a crises hot line if you need to. I am just so sorry.
 
Please stay with some family or friends, we are all here for you when you are ready to talk. Please just know you have a huge amount of support on this forum. I am so sorry you are having to go through this. Please take as much support from friends and family as you can get, they will be there for you.
Sammy
 
Not sure if this helps any but i found this and hoped it would help. :hug:

Look for me in Rainbows

Time for me to go now, I won't say goodbye;
Look for me in rainbows, way up in the sky.
In the morning sunrise when all the world is new,
Just look for me and love me, as you know I loved you.

Time for me to leave you, I won't say goodbye;
Look for me in rainbows, high up in the sky.
In the evening sunset, when all the world is through,
Just look for me and love me, and I'll be close to you.

It won't be forever, the day will come and then
My loving arms will hold you, when we meet again.

Time for us to part now, we won't say goodbye;
Look for me in rainbows, shining in the sky.
Every waking moment, and all your whole life through
Just look for me and love me, as you know I loved you.

Just wish me to be near you,
And I'll be there with you.

Music and lyrics: Conn Bernard (1990). Vicki Brown
 
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