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My Journey So Far.

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ashdawn8287

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Healing is coming to terms with things, taking care of yourself, loving yourself flaws in all, and staying connected to the present. It’s about getting through the dark and being able to see the light. It’s coming to peace with your past. It is a process of transforming into a constant state of resilience and relaxation.

When bad things happen it cuts right to your soul. You know the person who you really are? It makes your soul believe things that aren’t true and that one terrible situation is generalized into the world. When you don’t have a stable home, reliable people, guidance, or direction it is easy to become stuck and fixated on falling back to what you know so you literally become trapped in this cycle.

Those early influences shape who you are, what you have seen, the truths about things that most people would rather not discuss or overlook or distract themselves than to even think about those kind of things existing, but they do exist. We were never taught the right coping skills and externally you believe that evil is the way the world works and internally you believe something is wrong with you. So you learn to handle things as best as you can.

The going gets tough. You keep experiencing the true evils of the world because lets face it and be honest it, it is around us. Layer by layer these horrible things are repeated to you. So you keep quiet. And when you over hear a conversation or see something on TV mocking and joking about rape, race, starving people, gender, whatever it is it then again gets internalized as something that is no big deal. How unfair is that? When these things happened to us when we had no control, no choice, nothing. And people make fun of it. We are apparently crazy because someone raped us, someone beat us, someone took away who we are. We are forced to heal. To become resilient. To help others when they fall down. To be strong. To fight yourself every day. Why is that not admired?

People who have not experienced a traumatic event or in my case multiple trauma events have no idea the amount of struggle we encounter daily. The journey and process of healing is enlightening and you figure out what matters the most and you look around and see the struggles of others and how incredible strong you are. You feel alive again if only for a moment because lets face it, your thoughts don’t ever shut up.

As you’re sitting and spacing out you are forcing those thoughts out of your head. You are conditioning you’re body to relax because you literally can’t. You do yoga everyday. You replace every bad thought with a good thought. You do the right things. You keep to yourself. Inside you feel you are getting better. Nobody knows about this silent battle and just how incredibly strong you are. How hard it has been. The appreciation for the small things. You realize there is evil in the world, but you’re not. So you love yourself for that. You start to love other things and appreciate the good in life. You feel alive. The only thing you can do is help others get there and get right back up when you fall down. That is healing. That is becoming a survivor.
 
WOW.

I have no words to even compare to how beautifully AND precisely that is written.

I relate to all that you saw.

What a BEAUTIFUL piece - THANK YOU for sharing that!
 
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