Sexual Assault My Mom Never Loved Me

[Tina]

Finally realized that my mom truly does not love me. Today I had received some money to spend and when she have it to me I looked at her face and she had a bitter frowned up look on her face even though her voiced was fair. And again I had gotten into spat with my cranky sister over something and when I told my mom about it,I listened to her carefully, she completely took my sisters side as usual because in her eyes she can do no wrong and to her am always at fault. She's taken an abuser over me.in that moment, I have never felt more alone, more far away or more shocked from her before. I see for how ugly she really is.she never could love me.

 

[bluebird]

I am sorry you are feeling all these confusing painful emotions, Tina... You do deserve love. We all do. It was not your fault...

How is going your plan on leaving your mother´s house and finding your own place? I think it would really help you to move forward in your life.

Be kind to yourself. :wave:

 

[Tina]

@bluebird
Well,my friend,Wendi said I could crash at her place if I needed some relief. Am still working on my classes and stuff so I can get a good job working with children. Hopefully I will make enough to move out and get a place. :) btw I just got into a pointless argument with my mom today. It made me so upset that I literally tried to slash my throat and hang myself :(

 

[bluebird]

Your friend sounds like a good supporter for you, I am glad about it... Oh, and I am sorry about such stress in your life. You should really try to find your own place as soon as possible. But you do not deserve to hurt yourself. Please, never forget this: you are good, and yes, you are!

 

[Tina]

Thank you

 

[Tina]

@bluebird
So, for now what do you suggest on how I should deal with my crazy loser mom outburst and verbal abuse?

 

[bluebird]

I´m afraid I don´t know how to cope with verbal abuse... I always start crying, but that´s not really helpful. I guess it would be good to leave in case she starts yelling at you, start calm, not arguing with her at this point. Try to keep your mind clear. Encourage your self-esteem and try not to let it down by another people´s words... Hmmm... easier said than done, I guess... :thinking:

 

[Tina]

Thanks for the info. Btw, I asked another family member if they could talk with her about the incident.

 

[Courtney]

Stay strong tina, we have all been down similar roads when it comes to child abuse. we just face different types of cracks, no matter the situation. it's very hard for any one to go through or even understand. If you ever need to talk, I just made my account today, so I too can share my story and cope with things a little differently. So feel free to message me, I would love to be supportive for you or anyone on this website. Stay strong, you're worth it!

 

[digger]

I think this is something a lot of us end up having to face and come to terms with. That for whatever reason, the parents that should have been protecting us, either hurt us or did not do anything to prevent the hurt.

It made me so upset that I literally tried to slash my throat and hang myself :(

Did you see a doctor for this?

Btw, I asked another family member if they could talk with her about the incident.

Is this someone who might be able to help you to get help for yourself?

 

[Tina]

Did you see a doctor for this?


Is this someone who might be able to help you to get help for yourself?

No. Am alright. They were shallow cuts but I still treated them.

 

[Tina]

Stay strong, you're worth it!

Thanks