My Parents And Siblings Have Always Hated Me

[lately]

On Sept. 22, 2013, my six younger siblings threw an anniversary party for our parents. They had all kinds of praise and glowing accolades for the perpetrators of misery. I am the oldest and was beaten physically, browbeaten emotionally and basically told that I should not exist.

This is odd because I spent my childhood raising my siblings, so my life must have had value to them in some way.

I did not go to the party. I was violently ill the entire day. I had planned to attend and to try to lay low,and stay out of the range of fire. I physically could not leave the bathroom the day of the party.

My siblings and many other relatives were in from out of town, from across the globe. I left a message that I was unable to attend due to illness. No response. People were in town, then left and never got in touch with me at all.

The thing that happened on the 22nd is STILL happening. I have not gotten better.
Thanks for reading this post. It was really hard to write this down.

 

[Philippa]

OMG! I thought when I read this that you may have brought on the illness as a way to get out of going, as I got the impression you didn't really want to go, but then when I read that you are still experiencing this illness...that's just crazy.

Have you been able to visit a doctor or find out what is wrong?

 

[franciemarnie]

How awful that there be a party and accolades for these people that abused you. I am so so sorry. I would have called in sick too.

As for your siblings - talk about denial of reality. Geez! They are sick. Literally.

It makes sense it's still happening. I think you were majorly triggered. It was a perfect storm.

Again I am so sorry. I would have reacted and responded in the same way. I hope you have a good T to work thru this latest thing.

In the meantime please do everything you can think of to be kind to yourself and treat yourself and love yourself.

 

[Venusian]

I really hope you have gone to a doctor. Having anything that keeps you close to a bathroom for that long is something that needs medical attention. It doesn't matter if it is a virus or psychologically based, you need to see a doctor.

I am so sorry your family behaved that way, it must be really hard. My family is much the same way, there hasn't been abuse but it seems like I have to be the one travelling to see them or I have to be the one to make contact. Is it possible none of your relatives got the message that you were sick? I hope you feel better soon.