Lauren Rose
Bronze Member
Hello My People.... my pack. "She who cannot howl will never find her pack." I howled to the internet and found you. Part of me is so sad that there are others like me, so many in fact that there is an entire community and it makes my heart hurt that so many are suffering. I am truly sorry for your pain. And at the same time I am so very encouraged and inspired because help is here as well. A way to ease the suffering. With so many voices and experiences and perspectives, there will be ideas and perspectives I haven't even known could exist so there is a way.
My name is Lauren Rose and I am relieved to meet you. I am in the process of a break up from a 6 year relationship so my heart is extremely tender and vulnerable. I am so very thankful for my PTSD trauma training as it is sustaining me and even though I feel like I am hurtling through space, tumbling and rolling between trapeze swings without a safety net, I feel secure in the knowledge that I will come through this only because there are others like me who have done the same. Does that make sense?
Is it hard? Miserably so. In my facebook page I came across a memory from 2 years ago and it spoke to me so much. "Grief, I've learned, is really just love. It's all the love you want to give but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go." This is me right now, all the love I have for my partner that isn't reciprocated and now I am leaving. A good move, we are simply not compatible enough.
I have Complex PTSD and was diagnosed in 2006 and spent 5 years in the "dark times" as I fought for my life finding my way out. I have been back out in the world since 2012 and am finally dancing in the sunlight and darting back into the shadows instead of living in the dreaded bog. I wanted to come here and reconnect with my world online as you saved me in my dark times. Reading your stories .... helped me through.
Even writing this little bit I feel stronger. Thank you for reading.
My name is Lauren Rose and I am relieved to meet you. I am in the process of a break up from a 6 year relationship so my heart is extremely tender and vulnerable. I am so very thankful for my PTSD trauma training as it is sustaining me and even though I feel like I am hurtling through space, tumbling and rolling between trapeze swings without a safety net, I feel secure in the knowledge that I will come through this only because there are others like me who have done the same. Does that make sense?
Is it hard? Miserably so. In my facebook page I came across a memory from 2 years ago and it spoke to me so much. "Grief, I've learned, is really just love. It's all the love you want to give but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go." This is me right now, all the love I have for my partner that isn't reciprocated and now I am leaving. A good move, we are simply not compatible enough.
I have Complex PTSD and was diagnosed in 2006 and spent 5 years in the "dark times" as I fought for my life finding my way out. I have been back out in the world since 2012 and am finally dancing in the sunlight and darting back into the shadows instead of living in the dreaded bog. I wanted to come here and reconnect with my world online as you saved me in my dark times. Reading your stories .... helped me through.
Even writing this little bit I feel stronger. Thank you for reading.
