Sexual Assault My Story

[Nyx]

Maybe it wouldn't hurt to try, though. Because that would explain a lot of things, including why you would "attack" a pacient or why you would OD. Then again, maybe they're just jerks who know nothing about life or feelings...

 

[cherryblossom]

Maybe it wouldn't hurt to try, though. Because that would explain a lot of things, including why you would "attack" a pacient or why you would OD. Then again, maybe they're just jerks who know nothing about life or feelings...

Woe there! :rolleyes: I didn't attack a patient. I gave a drunk, leacherous man, a verbal piece of my mind, while he was being a perve and calling me 'his angel'. But yes, my male colleague who knows my circumstances did have to take me to one side and tell me to shut up and drive, while he stayed in the back with the patient (who had facial wounds from a drunken fight). I'm not trying to defend my verbal outburst, but shit happens when your out on the road attending 999's, and we are all only human. I have had to litterally drag the same colleague away from punching a 'patient'. The word 'patient', doesn't necessarily mean, poor helpless individual on deaths' door. Often our 'patients' are drunk, or drugged up to the hilt, aggressive and dangerous ...... maybe I'm better off out of it?

And also to my knowledge my 'boss' doesn't know that I've taken OD's, or been hospitalised. Both of those facts would give them more amunition against me, not give them more empathy towards me. At least that's the way I see it.

 

[cherryblossom]

I'm sorry Nyx. I think my reply above, was overly defensive on my part. I apologise. Your imput is greatly appreciated. Thank you.

 

[Nyx]

Don't worry about it. My choice of words was not a happy one and I'll be a little more careful the next time.

 

[cherryblossom]

Don't worry about it. My choice of words was not a happy one and I'll be a little more careful the next time.

Seriously, it was me, being overly sensitive :oops:. End of conversation ;)

 

[Hlost]

Cherryblossom, your story just touched my heart and made me cry, I hurt so much for what you went through. I understand the amount of work you must have gone through just to be able to get this far. How brave you are to have survived such a horrible experience and then to be able to put it down in words like this is amazing. I appreciate you sharing, I can pick out bits and pieces that I certainly can relate to.

HLost

 

[cherryblossom]

Thank you HLost. Sorry it made you cry.
Yes, lots of hard work done - but still plenty more to go! ;)

 

[Aine McA]

Hi Cherryblossom, Oh god thanks for sharing that with me. I have seen "Him", well his sort.....My attacker didnt have aknife and a gun all the time, he had his followers though, all 170 and i gave up counting. It was over 6 years, and they spiked my drinks. But i dare say this sort of human contains a disorder, rouge dangerous things. I have compassion for every thing but i stuggle to .with these types, but hate is evil and does more damage than good...............................sorry Cherryblossom. You have gone through this and your still breathing, really i shouldn't remark, because im kind of speechless and humbled by your ordeal. I dont reaally know what to say apart i feel like reaching out to you! God .......................love and light!..........i do feel slighly unworthy to comment!:hug:

 

[cherryblossom]

Hey exbagger, welcome to the forum :wave:
No one is unworthy to comment, and your comments are appreciated. Thank you for taking the time to read, and comment. I've read other people's stories, and it's always hard to comment.... to find the right words - so thank you. I always find it very positive to know my voice was heard, when I've shared something particularly difficult.

 

[Aine McA]

Hey exbagger, welcome to the forum :wave:
No one is unworthy to comment, and your comments are appreciated. Thank you for taking the time to read, and comment. I've read other people's stories, and it's always hard to comment.... to find the right words - so thank you. I always find it very positive to know my voice was heard, when I've shared something particularly difficult.

Yes you are great, although yours is the first Truma i have read on here, a few years back i read the Courage to Heal, which is a great book and helped alot at the time, mostly in understanding the 3rd party's inablity to understand. I truelly do, and am deeply hurt for u. They say that the more hurt you feel, the deeper all feelings are with people like us. :angel: I don't think i can write about my Truma yet, not that it hurts, it does, but because there is so bleedin much of it. They werent strangers to me, they were lads i had grown up with and their friends and others, i did reasently find out however, that these lads had been laughing and telling these horrific stories that where true, to women. :stomp:elling them that i was up for it and i did it for drugs (of which i didn't take, apart from the 1s they spiked me with), unfortunately these (women) choose to believe the men, and cut me off as friends, great hay?? She said she was sorry for not helping, but as i didn't know these attacks were happening, what the heck. Know your mates!!! I have asked her to write down what they said, i don't think she will. We all live in a small area!!:cold:

 

[Blutarg]

Hi Cherryblossom... You are very brave. Well done for having written this and managing to put it down in writing so to speak. It must have taken a great deal of effort! This was a terribly violent ordeal to have gone through and I commend you for you determination to get to where you are now. It gives the rest of us hope too. I haven't got to a point where I can actually write down details but maybe it will come some day. If you can do it then surely I can...? How old were you when this happened? (If I may ask?) Was this man ever caught? Did you get help, treatment or support afterwards? It never ceases to amaze me just how much the human mind can actual handle. You are one remarkable person. Link Removed

 

[cherryblossom]

If you can do it then surely I can...?

yes, there's nothing special about me. If I can do it, anyone can.

How old were you when this happened?

I was 20 (now 38)

Was this man ever caught?

I didn't report him. Whether he has been caught since for doing similar to someone else, I don't know

Did you get help, treatment or support afterwards?

No, I didn't tell a sole. I was diagnosed with PTSD about 7 years ago, which was the first time I spoke out, and asked for help. I only told my family in summer last year, and have finally found a good therapist, and I'm "ready" to talk, so I'm finally making positives moves forward.Link Removed