Jamie Cotton-Hutson
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Let me start from the beginning. We had a friend who lived up the road he is a year older than me. When this happened I was about 8. My sister my two cousins and I were hanging out with him in my yard in a little wooded area. He pulled down his pants and told me to kiss his penis I said no but everyone was egging me on to do it so I did and I was really scared to. Another time with him was he made me make out with him under a blanket in the yard on a mat. My parents asked if we were making out and I told them no cause I didn't want to get in trouble.
Then...it started with one of my younger cousin's who is roughly 2 years younger than me. We would hang out in this wooded area that was more wooded then the first one. and he asked me if I wanted to play doctor and listen to each others heart beats. I said yes so we took turns putting our ears on each others chests. He then told me to take my shirt off which I did and he took his off as well and we started to do it that way so we could "hear it better" he then started to touch my chest and pinch and rub my nipples and told me to take my pants and panties off so I did. He would then start grinding against me and touch me down there and look at it he told me to sit on a tree branch so he could get a better look a also told me to lay on the ground and would get on top on me and touch and kiss me in areas he then the next day told me to get toilet paper so we wouldn't have to go inside so he would tell me to go to the bathroom and would watch me. At one point he stuck his finger in me once or twice and would finger me a few times he then during nap time in my sisters room told me to make out with him this happened from when I was 9 to 12 and I kept saying no it doesn't feel right we shouldn't be doing this but he kept telling me it was ok but not to tell out parents.
Then a kid when I was 14 would convince me into letting him touch my chest I had told him no but he used to bully me and told me if I let him he would stop but if I didn't he would tell the school that I was a slut. At one point he got me under a desk and asked if I wanted to see his penis I said yes and he pulled it out. After I got out from under the desk the teacher asked me what we were doing and I said nothing.
The last thing that happened with my cousin was when I was 16. I told him I liked a guy and a friend had told me he was 11 inches long so my cousin took me out back and told me that if I wanted to fit him all it he had to stretch me out first mind you I didn't take sex ed cause my grandma thought I learned that in science when really we only learned about the DNA make up of it. So I didn't know what a hymen was I though that virginity was something deeper in like a bubble you had to pop. So I got on top of him and slowly went down. It hurt a lot and I stared to bleed big time even though only a little past the head was in me. He got scared and asked if I was on my period I got scared and got off and got redressed. That whole day I kept asking him If I was still a virgin and he kept telling me I was.
I was 17 almost 18 I started dating this guy over the internet and by phone. He started to ask for pictures videos and webcam play at the time I would say no but he insisted I do it cause "he loved me so much and wanted to jerk off to me" I started sending him pics he would tell me how to take them (poses) then after I got out of high school 6 months later he came up at first it was consensual play but then he stared asking for the real deal over and over and over again and I kept saying no but I eventually caved thee first time it was anal the second time it was vaginal. Then when I went down to his place (Oregon) I would say no but he would convince me again to have sex with him. Then I told him mom we were dating he told me I would "get it later" that night he anal raped me again he wasn't gentle at all like the first time he made me bleed a little. then after we broke up I got with this other guy but we were only together for 3 days because I was still hung up on him. After that I was fiends with benefits with this guy I gave him oral and at one point anal. Once I got with this other guy he would ask me for Oral and I would say no eventually he stopped and now he denies it ever happened. That I stared dating the guy who abused me in high school and made me cheat on the guy who anal raped me at fist I didn't want to have ex with him but I decided to because shit had already happened between us he later "hit it then ditch it twice) he is now gay with a boyfriend he loves so I forgive him for it.
Than there was a friend who would randomly grab my chest after I had said no but he said that he was "only playing" I slept at his house one and he made me sleep in his bed since there was no other place for me to sleep he had his hand on my breast "cause feeling someone heart beat gets him to sleep faster" after I told him no
At time my big brother (not really my brother someone I have known since I was 3 in preschool cause his mom worked in the class will randomly grab my chest or my butt after I tell him to stop. other times he wanted to "help me" and played with my vagina he told me he would only use the dildo but he ended up using his fingers and other times he would finger my ass and had me tied down at times.
Now with my new boyfriend now fiance back in January my big brother asked me if he could have a 3 some with me and my current because it was the only way for him and my fiance to have sex since they had f*cked before (my boyfriend is female to male) he stared to finger and lick my asshole. I told my fiance I didn't like it and he felt horrible that he let him molest me in front of him.
Since then I live with my fiance and we hope to at least have a wedding ceremony one day but when ever I see my brother he will touch me when I tell him to stop. My fiance told him once that he could come over but not be grabby at me so brother got upset and didn't come over to our house. (the engaged thing just happened in the last 3 days)
Then...it started with one of my younger cousin's who is roughly 2 years younger than me. We would hang out in this wooded area that was more wooded then the first one. and he asked me if I wanted to play doctor and listen to each others heart beats. I said yes so we took turns putting our ears on each others chests. He then told me to take my shirt off which I did and he took his off as well and we started to do it that way so we could "hear it better" he then started to touch my chest and pinch and rub my nipples and told me to take my pants and panties off so I did. He would then start grinding against me and touch me down there and look at it he told me to sit on a tree branch so he could get a better look a also told me to lay on the ground and would get on top on me and touch and kiss me in areas he then the next day told me to get toilet paper so we wouldn't have to go inside so he would tell me to go to the bathroom and would watch me. At one point he stuck his finger in me once or twice and would finger me a few times he then during nap time in my sisters room told me to make out with him this happened from when I was 9 to 12 and I kept saying no it doesn't feel right we shouldn't be doing this but he kept telling me it was ok but not to tell out parents.
Then a kid when I was 14 would convince me into letting him touch my chest I had told him no but he used to bully me and told me if I let him he would stop but if I didn't he would tell the school that I was a slut. At one point he got me under a desk and asked if I wanted to see his penis I said yes and he pulled it out. After I got out from under the desk the teacher asked me what we were doing and I said nothing.
The last thing that happened with my cousin was when I was 16. I told him I liked a guy and a friend had told me he was 11 inches long so my cousin took me out back and told me that if I wanted to fit him all it he had to stretch me out first mind you I didn't take sex ed cause my grandma thought I learned that in science when really we only learned about the DNA make up of it. So I didn't know what a hymen was I though that virginity was something deeper in like a bubble you had to pop. So I got on top of him and slowly went down. It hurt a lot and I stared to bleed big time even though only a little past the head was in me. He got scared and asked if I was on my period I got scared and got off and got redressed. That whole day I kept asking him If I was still a virgin and he kept telling me I was.
I was 17 almost 18 I started dating this guy over the internet and by phone. He started to ask for pictures videos and webcam play at the time I would say no but he insisted I do it cause "he loved me so much and wanted to jerk off to me" I started sending him pics he would tell me how to take them (poses) then after I got out of high school 6 months later he came up at first it was consensual play but then he stared asking for the real deal over and over and over again and I kept saying no but I eventually caved thee first time it was anal the second time it was vaginal. Then when I went down to his place (Oregon) I would say no but he would convince me again to have sex with him. Then I told him mom we were dating he told me I would "get it later" that night he anal raped me again he wasn't gentle at all like the first time he made me bleed a little. then after we broke up I got with this other guy but we were only together for 3 days because I was still hung up on him. After that I was fiends with benefits with this guy I gave him oral and at one point anal. Once I got with this other guy he would ask me for Oral and I would say no eventually he stopped and now he denies it ever happened. That I stared dating the guy who abused me in high school and made me cheat on the guy who anal raped me at fist I didn't want to have ex with him but I decided to because shit had already happened between us he later "hit it then ditch it twice) he is now gay with a boyfriend he loves so I forgive him for it.
Than there was a friend who would randomly grab my chest after I had said no but he said that he was "only playing" I slept at his house one and he made me sleep in his bed since there was no other place for me to sleep he had his hand on my breast "cause feeling someone heart beat gets him to sleep faster" after I told him no
At time my big brother (not really my brother someone I have known since I was 3 in preschool cause his mom worked in the class will randomly grab my chest or my butt after I tell him to stop. other times he wanted to "help me" and played with my vagina he told me he would only use the dildo but he ended up using his fingers and other times he would finger my ass and had me tied down at times.
Now with my new boyfriend now fiance back in January my big brother asked me if he could have a 3 some with me and my current because it was the only way for him and my fiance to have sex since they had f*cked before (my boyfriend is female to male) he stared to finger and lick my asshole. I told my fiance I didn't like it and he felt horrible that he let him molest me in front of him.
Since then I live with my fiance and we hope to at least have a wedding ceremony one day but when ever I see my brother he will touch me when I tell him to stop. My fiance told him once that he could come over but not be grabby at me so brother got upset and didn't come over to our house. (the engaged thing just happened in the last 3 days)
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