My Therapist's Gravely Voice

[Dirazoc]

Sometimes when we are processing trauma, my therapist will say "yeah" in a way that is almost funny/repulsive to me. She generally has a pretty gravely voice, and she will be tracking with me through the trauma, and I will say something like "my hand stings" or "I remember being hit" or "I feel scared" and she will say "yeah" and ask questions that are completely fitting.

The problem is "yeah" comes out a lot like how someone on a sex line would talk. Or it sounds like that to me, and it throws me off. She is absolutely not acting in that way, and there is no attraction to her or her gender. It's just the way her voice is. Or maybe the way I hear it. I'm repulsed by it.

I wonder if it is the trauma I am repulsed by and it comes up when she says "yeah."

It sounds like someone saying "yeah" like "yeah baby." Oh this is so hard to explain.

I keep wanting to bring it up with her, to ask she not talk so gravely because it really makes it hard to focus on the trauma. However, that feels so insulting to say or even ask.

Should I stick it out and see if it's just me and my experience of her saying "yeah" changes? Or should I say something? Would that be mean? She talks the way she talks, and most of the time, it is great. I don't think I have the courage to bring this up with her. Everything else about therapy is going very well. I don't want to get distracted by this or be so thrown off by it.

Can I change how this feels for me in any way?

 

[Ilaz]

This sort of fits I think. When my therapist would do emdr, the way she held her fingers made me think of a certain sex act and then I'd totally try not to laugh and my thoughts would go way off from the trauma I was processing. I finally talked to her about it....after five years....and it completely dispelled the "trigger". I haven't had the sex thought since.

So maybe talk to her? I know it can be freaking embarrassing but it worked for me.

 

[Vecuj]

I had one that did that voice, I had to get another therapist. Too triggering.