Narrating my day .. wats up with that?!

[nowthisisme]

Hi,

So i have something weird going on and i need to know if anyone else goes through this and what is it.
Since i started therapy i have been narrating in my head everything that happens to me during the day and night.
So basically it's like im telling a story about whats happening, as if i have to report it to someone. For example, if I'm cooking dinner, i started thinking "i got home for work late and rushed to defrost the chicken, i had to get the veggies out before i ... etc"
or " i woke up at 1am because i had a bad dream, i was worried i would wake my husband.."
It just keeps going on in my head and its annoying the hell out of me.
I can't get myself to stop.
Has this happened to anyone? What is it and why am i doing it? but most importantly how the hell do i stop it.
Thanks in advance!

 

[ladee]

Try starting a journal.... and you can always start a diary here.... but maybe writing it down, will help.. I have so much going on in my head most times, if I just write it out, it shuts my brain off for awhile... it does't have to make sense, doesn't have to be in proper English, just write...
I know I have a lot of talking going on, like rehearsing, but not, so writing seems to slow me down... then I can take a warm shower and do some self comfort... but can't do the comfort until the noise stops or at least calms down some. Hope this helps... Hopefully others will come on and give suggestions also...

 

[Friday]

It's an anti-disassociation trick. Rehearsing memories that otherwise wouldn't form and would leave blank spots.

It's also a developmental milestone... Being able to plot things out in linear fashion isn't something kids can do until around 7? 8? I'd need to check my numbers, but that's ballpark. A few years before, they start to be linear, but they can't skip stuff. EVERYTHING gets included. First I woke up, then I opened my eyes, then I need to pee, then my blanket was scratchy, then I stretched, then I got ready to climb out of bed... 5 million years later? They finally get to the bathroom for their morning pee. And then they skip ahead 9 hours, back 3 years, into imagination land, and resume their story with sitting on the toilet peeing. :facepalm: It takes awhile for children's brains to stay on target. <<< I know this mostly because I got a concussion which knocked me back to this stage. Telling a 1 paragraph story? Easily took 10-15 pages. I couldnt concise shit up to save my life. I couldn't prioritize details. Drove me absofreakinglutely insane for awhile. I still have the after effects of it. My natural state? Is really concise. After the TBI? f*ck. Sometimes I really can't stop talking. Although it's a lot more rare these days.

What's going on with you may be neither of these things. But if you've had problems with disassociation or head trauma? It might be a thing to consider.

 

[The Albatross]

It also works for me for stress, frustration or anxiety... cuz in the narrative I'm one step removed and more focused on the activity or the doing of something than how I feel about it. So for me it was a rudimentary emotional regulation tool.

Why though do YOU think you do it @nowthisisme ??

 

[shimmerz]

Have you told your T about it? If not, I am guessing this would be important for him/her to know.

 

[nowthisisme]

Try starting a journal.... and you can always start a diary here.... but maybe writing it down, will help...

Thanks for your input. I just started a journal a few weeks ago but i just don't seem to have the to time to write in it as much as i think i need to. I am working on it though. I made a lot of changes in my life lately and i'm trying to make more time for myself to be able to vent out whatever is my brain.

It also works for me for stress, frustration or anxiety... cuz in the narrative I'm one step remov...

I'm not fully sure why i do it. I think I started because I need to have more control over my actions and surroundings. @Friday had a point with the anti-dissociation trick, I want control over every step i make, I worry if i dissociate I will miss something important .. but it's very annoying.

I think i am putting too much pressure on myself to get better, I need to calm the hell done and take one step at a time. I just started treatment a couple of months ago, I don't know why i am pressuring myself this much.

Have you told your T about it? If not, I am guessing this would be important for him/her to know.[/QU...

I'll share it with her on my next session. I need some input on how to stop myself :confused: