maggie1110
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My hubby was sexually abused when he was a child by his step-father. He told me about this around 21 years ago (we're going on 34 years married). Last June, he lost his job and has not been able to find employment since. This is when his symptoms surfaced and he could no longer keep them inside. Within 2 weeks of losing his job, our nephew killed himself which worsened his symptoms.
Having suffered depression myself due to chronic pain years ago, I thought he was just depressed because he couldn't find a job and the old abuse was just something that popped out because of the depression. Not true. He currently sees a therapist, has been diagnosed with PTSD, and is on Prozac. He does not like to take pills so he does not take them consistently at the same time daily. We are going to talk to the doc tomorrow about him getting off the meds to see if he will feel better since he thinks the meds are making him feel lousy ALL the time.
About a month ago, he passed out while cooking dinner and got second degree burns on his legs. Two weeks ago, he went on the roof and was checking out our chimney when he passed out and fell 20-25 feet, fracturing a rib in the process. The therapist and doc at the facility where he goes are concerned that there is a neurological problem in addition to the PTSD. I am on Medicaid and Medicare; he has no insurance. We have been to a doctor to begin finding out what additionally is going on with him. He is in the process of getting bloodwork done and getting an appointment to see a neurologist who will have to do an EEG. He fights me on the doc visits because we have no money, but we have to find out what's wrong with him.
In the meantime, I have been reading a book called Shock Waves which I have found very helpful, however, it isn't enough support. I feel very frustrated and angry at the situation, especially because he is sometimes mean/nasty, but mostly emotionally bombards me with a multitude of "stuff" on a daily basis. I have seen a therapist twice and we're going to set up visits every couple of weeks. I also want to find a local support group. My life is complete insanity. It's like I'm living the movie 50 First Dates because hubby can't remember from minute to minute or day to day what was said or what he/we are doing. Because he gets startled very easily, I have to be very careful when making any noise, coming into a room, or simply turning on a light. I have been very patient and supportive for nearly 9 months, but it's all wearing super thin at this point. Not sure what the heck I should be doing and I'm concerned what will happen when he comes off the pills since before the pills, he literally cried for hours and hours daily. He is in weekly therapy, but I don't think that's enough. He needs more, but I don't know what the "more" is. The mental health system is so broken, so I'm afraid that he won't get what he needs in a hospital, which he does NOT want to go into. I'm just lost and exhausted right now...
Having suffered depression myself due to chronic pain years ago, I thought he was just depressed because he couldn't find a job and the old abuse was just something that popped out because of the depression. Not true. He currently sees a therapist, has been diagnosed with PTSD, and is on Prozac. He does not like to take pills so he does not take them consistently at the same time daily. We are going to talk to the doc tomorrow about him getting off the meds to see if he will feel better since he thinks the meds are making him feel lousy ALL the time.
About a month ago, he passed out while cooking dinner and got second degree burns on his legs. Two weeks ago, he went on the roof and was checking out our chimney when he passed out and fell 20-25 feet, fracturing a rib in the process. The therapist and doc at the facility where he goes are concerned that there is a neurological problem in addition to the PTSD. I am on Medicaid and Medicare; he has no insurance. We have been to a doctor to begin finding out what additionally is going on with him. He is in the process of getting bloodwork done and getting an appointment to see a neurologist who will have to do an EEG. He fights me on the doc visits because we have no money, but we have to find out what's wrong with him.
In the meantime, I have been reading a book called Shock Waves which I have found very helpful, however, it isn't enough support. I feel very frustrated and angry at the situation, especially because he is sometimes mean/nasty, but mostly emotionally bombards me with a multitude of "stuff" on a daily basis. I have seen a therapist twice and we're going to set up visits every couple of weeks. I also want to find a local support group. My life is complete insanity. It's like I'm living the movie 50 First Dates because hubby can't remember from minute to minute or day to day what was said or what he/we are doing. Because he gets startled very easily, I have to be very careful when making any noise, coming into a room, or simply turning on a light. I have been very patient and supportive for nearly 9 months, but it's all wearing super thin at this point. Not sure what the heck I should be doing and I'm concerned what will happen when he comes off the pills since before the pills, he literally cried for hours and hours daily. He is in weekly therapy, but I don't think that's enough. He needs more, but I don't know what the "more" is. The mental health system is so broken, so I'm afraid that he won't get what he needs in a hospital, which he does NOT want to go into. I'm just lost and exhausted right now...
