Sorry if this seems differnet but I do not post on line, this is the first time
I've ever posted, i think but then my memory has gotten disjointed over the last couple of years. I am suffering from PTSD apparently accumlated delayed acute ptsd I'm told, when I pay attention. My therpist suggested I try and fine others to talk to to see if it will help but unfortunately I tend to disassociate very easily and can be distrcted for several hours if not interrupted which doesn't make for good talking or writing. I have been using
a small egg timer set for 30 minutes to bring me back. Thats always good for a laugh standing in line at starbucks but it seems to work.
My ptsd comes from 30 years of police work with one major trigger and the final thread coming 4 years ago at a fatal motorcycle accident of a young person I had been mentoring. it was not good and led me to a gravel pit where i sat for some time deciding whether to live or die. obviously i chose to live but not becuse of the death but because my friends would have to investigate it and clean up the mess. I put in my retirment papers the next week and the docotr at the final medical picked up on something and insisted
i see a specialist and now 4 years later i have days i actually manage to do something besides stare at the sky/walls etc etc.
Anyway back again not sure how time went before alarm, it seems normal to me but kinda freaks out the wife to zone out so easy. I'll spend some time readings the threads probably . i'm not a very open person.
I've ever posted, i think but then my memory has gotten disjointed over the last couple of years. I am suffering from PTSD apparently accumlated delayed acute ptsd I'm told, when I pay attention. My therpist suggested I try and fine others to talk to to see if it will help but unfortunately I tend to disassociate very easily and can be distrcted for several hours if not interrupted which doesn't make for good talking or writing. I have been using
a small egg timer set for 30 minutes to bring me back. Thats always good for a laugh standing in line at starbucks but it seems to work.
My ptsd comes from 30 years of police work with one major trigger and the final thread coming 4 years ago at a fatal motorcycle accident of a young person I had been mentoring. it was not good and led me to a gravel pit where i sat for some time deciding whether to live or die. obviously i chose to live but not becuse of the death but because my friends would have to investigate it and clean up the mess. I put in my retirment papers the next week and the docotr at the final medical picked up on something and insisted
i see a specialist and now 4 years later i have days i actually manage to do something besides stare at the sky/walls etc etc.
Anyway back again not sure how time went before alarm, it seems normal to me but kinda freaks out the wife to zone out so easy. I'll spend some time readings the threads probably . i'm not a very open person.
