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[Shaks Armaretto]

Hello everyone.
So I've been dealing with some past issues concerning sexual abuse.

A quick history: I was verbally,physically abused by mostly men/boys. Because of that my self esteem was non existent. So when guys would touch me sexually,to me,it would feel good and made me feel wanted and pretty. I was never in denial about what happened,I just didn't,for a long time,want to call it SEXUAL ABUSE because it wasn't FORCED on me.
Anyway,lately I've been feeling angry at one of the guys that did it to me.I was 8/9 he was 15/16
I felt like I was gonna explode the other day from my emotions.
I feel better now,I had to pray about it but I just wanted to share and I'm glad I found this forum :)

 

[Lucycat]

Hi Shaks and welcome to the forum.

Are you seeing a therapist? It would probably help you to work through all these emotions rather than exploding! It can all be so overwhelming and helps to work with somebody who understands
Best wishes,
Lucy x

 

[cherryblossom]

Welcome to the forum Shaks. :wave:

It might help to talk more about what happened here, on the forum. You might want to start a diary in the diary forum to let out some of your thoughts and feelings.

Take care.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)

The diary that cherryblossom mentioned is very helpful. I would give it a try if you can.

 

[rightkindofme]

Welcome! There are lots of people here who will understand.

 

[Shaks Armaretto]

Hi Shaks and welcome to the forum.

Are you seeing a therapist? It would probably help you to work through all these emotions rather than exploding! It can all be so overwhelming and helps to work with somebody who understands
Best wishes,
Lucy x

Hello brucielucy,yes I have been seeing a therapist.
I actually started in 2011,which has been extremely helpful. I'm now seeing a new therapist since March of this year and also taking zoloft which has also helped.

 

[Shaks Armaretto]

Welcome to the forum Shaks. :wave:

It might help to talk more about what happened here, on the forum. You might want to start a diary in the diary forum to let out some of your thoughts and feelings.

Take care.

Hello cherry blossom, that's a very good idea.
My therapist actually suggested I start journaling,so I guess that's what I'll do :)
I also write poems and songs & that has been a great catharsis as well :)
At the moment I feel like making an album of just hate and anger songs to my abuser.lol

 

[Shaks Armaretto]

Welcome to the forum. :)

The diary that cherryblossom mentioned is very helpful. I would give it a try if you can.

Hello, thanks for the advice :)

 

[Shaks Armaretto]

Welcome! There are lots of people here who will understand.

Thanks for the welcome :)