So, I had a different-than-usual nightmare last night. Well, a bit different, some the same.
I'm almost always moving from one house to another in my nightmares, and this one was the same. Except the weather was horrible - it was like a tornado or hurricane or something - violent rains and wind - big rigs were being blown off the highway, taking other cars with them, people were losing control of their cars everywhere, and I was driving this weird hatchback sedan type car and doing all my moving in it. I knew it would take eleventy million trips.
My fiance was with me, but I was driving, and about the time I started thinking we should just pull over and stop, I realize one of my cats had gotten into the car and was sleeping on the dashboard. For some reason this meant I had to hurry to get to the new house.
When I got there, Supernanny was making dinner, but my Dad's ex-wife was there, too. She said she was glad to see me, but the way she figured it was going to be a 'three strikes deal' - which I interpreted to mean that our family could contact her three times total and that was it. In reality, my dad and her were married for 10 years before she left him, after going through all his money and making him close his business. I've only seen her once since then and she didn't say 2 words to me even though I tried to converse with her.
Anyways, so in my nightmare I just went off on her. I was screaming and yelling and cussing her out and when she tried to leave I beat her to death with an umbrella and my Dad, when he got there, was SO angry at me. But how dare she be at my house and then act like such a... meanie.
I woke up in tears and feeling so angry. My fiance wasn't very sympathetic and now I just feel drained and beat up and so-so sad. I think I've lost my step brother - he doesn't acknowledge me anymore either and we were so close, or so I thought. I just don't feel like myself today - really apathetic, like nothing actually matters. And it doesn't, in the grand scheme of things. No one cares about me or what I do or anything except my fiance. I could disappear and he's the only one who would even know.
Thanks for reading all this, I don't know what my point is, I'm just so disturbed inside - it was such an intense nightmare and so gory....
I'm almost always moving from one house to another in my nightmares, and this one was the same. Except the weather was horrible - it was like a tornado or hurricane or something - violent rains and wind - big rigs were being blown off the highway, taking other cars with them, people were losing control of their cars everywhere, and I was driving this weird hatchback sedan type car and doing all my moving in it. I knew it would take eleventy million trips.
My fiance was with me, but I was driving, and about the time I started thinking we should just pull over and stop, I realize one of my cats had gotten into the car and was sleeping on the dashboard. For some reason this meant I had to hurry to get to the new house.
When I got there, Supernanny was making dinner, but my Dad's ex-wife was there, too. She said she was glad to see me, but the way she figured it was going to be a 'three strikes deal' - which I interpreted to mean that our family could contact her three times total and that was it. In reality, my dad and her were married for 10 years before she left him, after going through all his money and making him close his business. I've only seen her once since then and she didn't say 2 words to me even though I tried to converse with her.
Anyways, so in my nightmare I just went off on her. I was screaming and yelling and cussing her out and when she tried to leave I beat her to death with an umbrella and my Dad, when he got there, was SO angry at me. But how dare she be at my house and then act like such a... meanie.
I woke up in tears and feeling so angry. My fiance wasn't very sympathetic and now I just feel drained and beat up and so-so sad. I think I've lost my step brother - he doesn't acknowledge me anymore either and we were so close, or so I thought. I just don't feel like myself today - really apathetic, like nothing actually matters. And it doesn't, in the grand scheme of things. No one cares about me or what I do or anything except my fiance. I could disappear and he's the only one who would even know.
Thanks for reading all this, I don't know what my point is, I'm just so disturbed inside - it was such an intense nightmare and so gory....
