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gio_marino
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AWESOME post. Thank you. This hit home. I really need to work on getting to the root of my issue. My ex just instilled it in my head that my problem stems from drinking and basically I'm a drunk. At the time I believed it. My maturity level and my consciousness in general has risen to a new height. I believe it'll save my life.
I need to quit obsessing on the alcohol and get to the core. I had read that psilocybin and LSD help cure alcoholism, which at the time of my search, was convinced was my issue. Once I started to trip instead of going outside and enjoying it, I tried to focus on my "addiction". Well let me tell you, it got so much deeper than my alcohol use it isn't funny. There were a lot of tears, but the following days were wonderful! A sense of peace me calmness would overtake me and I felt like I could focus on improving myself; and on well on my way to conquering my issue.
Sadly, this would only last for about a week. I dont do it at all anymore. I stopped out of fear of further distorting cognitive function and disrupting my education. Which is probably what my binge drinking is doing. I want to stop that, too. Mushrooms were like the ultimate pain killer though. Not while tripping, the following week after. I could be in anxious situations, like out with bunch of friends who are drinking in a packed club after a stressful, and drink water. AND enjoy myself.
I think what was happening is that I have so much repressed from my childhood that a psychedelic experience brought some out. It was relieving because I kept it all in my whole life, never even speaking to a therapist as a kid. Which is why I didn't even have a desire to drink. I'm going to work on finding someone good to go see, but as of now, I have no clue how ill afford it.
The fact that I'm still living in the same house that all of it went down I am SURE doesn't help my cause either.
I need to quit obsessing on the alcohol and get to the core. I had read that psilocybin and LSD help cure alcoholism, which at the time of my search, was convinced was my issue. Once I started to trip instead of going outside and enjoying it, I tried to focus on my "addiction". Well let me tell you, it got so much deeper than my alcohol use it isn't funny. There were a lot of tears, but the following days were wonderful! A sense of peace me calmness would overtake me and I felt like I could focus on improving myself; and on well on my way to conquering my issue.
Sadly, this would only last for about a week. I dont do it at all anymore. I stopped out of fear of further distorting cognitive function and disrupting my education. Which is probably what my binge drinking is doing. I want to stop that, too. Mushrooms were like the ultimate pain killer though. Not while tripping, the following week after. I could be in anxious situations, like out with bunch of friends who are drinking in a packed club after a stressful, and drink water. AND enjoy myself.
I think what was happening is that I have so much repressed from my childhood that a psychedelic experience brought some out. It was relieving because I kept it all in my whole life, never even speaking to a therapist as a kid. Which is why I didn't even have a desire to drink. I'm going to work on finding someone good to go see, but as of now, I have no clue how ill afford it.
The fact that I'm still living in the same house that all of it went down I am SURE doesn't help my cause either.
