New Years Resolutions

[felix]

Yep Link Removed It will be either Monday or Tuesday (to be confirmed on Monday morning depending on emergency appointments) because I want to see a specific Dr who I saw when I had flu last year and felt quite comfortable with! I'm thinking it was a good step being firm on that with the receptionist, she sounded scandalised that I wanted to see a specific Dr and not just the next available appointment though.

 

[Lucycat]

Good for you!
At my practise you register with the practise rather than a named GP, but I have found through experience which one I prefer. Like you, I insist on seeing the one I want even if that means a delay.
Sure, if I had appendicitis then anyone would do, but when it is to discuss mental health/psychological issues you definitely need to feel comfortable.

Good luck for Monday/ Tuesday. Let us know how you get on.
Lx

 

[Nyx]

Up 'til now I have only been able to do the smoking part right. For the rest of it, one could say I wasn't even alive.. except I went to work and talked to people. Since they're not panicking, I imagine I'm not decomposing yet..

 

[Lucycat]

I imagine I'm not decomposing yet.

love your choice of words!
No your definitely not decomposing. In fact you are just tentatively starting to get yourself back together. You want to live, in the fullest sense of the word.

Sure, it is going to be sooo much hard work, and so many competing priorities.
Wednesday I was struggling so much with sex, then yesterday I was craving a cigarette, today is Friday, I am going out for dinner tonight and will have to fight off alcohol.

But I am still here, and just a little bit stronger than I was this time last week. and yes the folk at work wont even have noticed what a hard week I have had. But I am not going to tell them, I just have this little voice inside me saying "yeh, you've done it!"

 

[cherryblossom]

Yeah!! You've done it. Well done Link Removed Change that little voice inside to a BIG voice inside of you - be proud of your achievements, if only to yourself.

 

[Nyx]

Thanks for the pep talk, Lucy, brought a smile to my face..

 

[jadebear]

So far I have stuck to the resolutions I made. It has been rough at times, but I've made it through. I just keep reminding myself of the big picture in all of this.

I'm still working on finding the right meds though... and I'm still working on changing things at home. I think both are going to take time.

 

[Lucycat]

Well done Jade bear. Be proud of your achievements. Today is the end of January. That means you- and I have managed a whole month.

I too still have lots more work to do to achieve all my goals this year, but it does feel good to know that at least we have started heading in the right direction.

 

[WonderingWhy]

To both Jadebear & Brucielucy

Fantastica!

 

[Nyx]

Good job, girls!

I have started to walk the right path myself..

I haven't read an entire book this month, but that's because I was really struggling with a book my T gave me and I really tried to finish that before starting a novel. For now I can't seem to go forward with that book, it makes me really mad at times, so I took a break and started "Pride and prejudice". Yesterday I finished the first volume and I can't wait to get to the second one. I'll try to catch up and finish this and another book by the end of Feb.

I have cut down the cigarettes - some days even lower than half a pack - yey me!!

I'm starting to have a voice and really say no when it's the case. And I'm even enjoying it :) This brought me to phase two: accepting compliments. It's easier to do in writing than face to face, but I'm sure I'll get there also..

I stopped staying after hours at work - at least I don't stay THAT much -, but I have started to be late to work, and I have to do something about that..

The last two items... not so good. Haven't learned anything yet, but there's still time. As for seeing people.. I've tried. I really did the best I could to go out. And that's enough for now. I'll take it easy with this, because I'm struggling with myself and can't quite handle others' problems...

 

[WonderingWhy]

Good for you!!! Sounds like some good progress!!Link RemovedLink RemovedLink Removed

 

[Lucycat]

8 weeks now without a single cigarette.
6 weeks without alcohol.