BlackbirdSinging
Diamond Member
With childhood trauma there is no 'normal' baseline to return to, ever, and the adult trauma on top of it is par for the course.
Thank you thank you thank you thank you for saying this! I've always kind of had this feeling that when a person is abused as a child.. myself included.. as in BEFORE they have ever properly developed coping mechanisms or really ever found their voice to speak up for themselves they are in effect silenced before they can speak.
And since an average normal hadn't yet had the chance to be developed an entirely different kind of normal is developed than what the social norm follows. And I think that if there was conditioning involved that speaks to ..I'll speak for myself here.. feeling like I was marked for more abuse by other people. Because I then went about life ALREADY conditioned and as a child I didn't realize it. And I think that might be how I ended up "attracting" more abusive people into my life throughout my life as my trauma is complex. My normal was built around abuse long before I was even 10 years old. So to what you were saying about returning to a normal baseline.. what is that? You know?