Undiagnosed No End In Sight

[Lee2676]

My name is Lee, I'm 38 mom of three teens. I was stalked and raped. He is still out there and I am a prisioner held by fear everyday. The trauma from this has consumed me. i dont eat or sleep. or i drink till i pass out. The fear is traping me. i dont see an end. I just want to give in

 

[ReachingOutJ]

Lee, firstly, I'm a bit new here, but I want to welcome you to the board. I too have a stalker, and I have also been raped. I drank pretty much every day, for three weeks after seeing him following me again; when the restraining order expired. I ended up in the hospital, being quickly detoxed from alcohol; drank to stop panic and anxiety, but then it stopped working. I had not slept in days, and they pumped me full of Ativan. I am now on a twice daily dose of Clonazepam to control my anxiety. I have some shame for taking it, but I need to learn not to be ashamed for taking medication that I need right now. I just want you to know you are not alone, and I am deeply sorry for what has happened to you. I empathize. A hug, if you accept it.

 

[pursuitofahappyheart]

HI Lee. I'm so sorry to hear what happened to you. Well done for reaching out here. Do you have some help other than here? Someone you can talk to in your life- friend or therapist? I'm in trauma therapy at the moment and I have to say although it is the hardest thing i've ever done and comes with many side effects.... I am confident that after I get through this, I will be okay. Talking about it helps. I wasn't able to say what happened, and the first time I did was on here... So it's a start ok :) Just keep looking for the light at the end of the tunnel. It's there I promise :) In the meantime- what can you do to get through the days apart from what you mentioned? (Which are all coping strategies- just not as helpful in the long run!) xxxx Lisa

 

[Friday]

Welcome to the forums :)

 

[intothelight]

@Lee2676 Welcome to the forum!

Constant fear is crippling and makes life a challenge in every possible aspect. However, there are options and treatments to help lessen and many times eliminate the fear. If possible, seek the help of a trauma therapist as you deserve to live your life free of the the fear.