Chem Lady
Silver Member
On this site I've read a lot about dissociation and I don't think I dissociate based on what others have said. Someone described it as either being in the backseat of a driving car or being in the trunk of a driving car. I don't feel like I lose control of my body like that, but I do experience something that is hard to define and I was hoping others could add some thoughts to help me out.
This happens to me typically after spending time in social situations with people who I am not totally comfortable with (read: everyone but my husband and our one good friend). I find social situations incredibly stressful because I learned to be hypersensitive to people and I'm constantly reading body language, tone, word usage etc. and I worry about how my contribution is being received. At a certain point I find myself receding into my body. I can still hear what people are saying, but it feels fuzzy and I find myself so deep inside myself that in order to respond in any normal kind of way I have to muster up a huge amount of energy just to reply. Once I get like this I make sure to hole up inside my house where I can allow myself to be so incredibly distant. I just feel completely disconnected from the world. I usually watch brain-dead tv until I come out of it. Sometimes it takes me 8hrs, but sometimes it takes 48hrs before I feel like I made it back to the surface of myself and I can connect with people again.
Any thoughts would be appreciated.
This happens to me typically after spending time in social situations with people who I am not totally comfortable with (read: everyone but my husband and our one good friend). I find social situations incredibly stressful because I learned to be hypersensitive to people and I'm constantly reading body language, tone, word usage etc. and I worry about how my contribution is being received. At a certain point I find myself receding into my body. I can still hear what people are saying, but it feels fuzzy and I find myself so deep inside myself that in order to respond in any normal kind of way I have to muster up a huge amount of energy just to reply. Once I get like this I make sure to hole up inside my house where I can allow myself to be so incredibly distant. I just feel completely disconnected from the world. I usually watch brain-dead tv until I come out of it. Sometimes it takes me 8hrs, but sometimes it takes 48hrs before I feel like I made it back to the surface of myself and I can connect with people again.
Any thoughts would be appreciated.
