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Ok I am here to put a thread and I don't know what to do next.
What have I experienced is anixety and mixed emotions since few days. I got a package from my mom and it contains some records of my childhood. Yes, I read them and I called my mom. Of course, I got some more information from my mom that lead me feeling too much overwhelmed with my childhood, anger, and then flashbacks came back on me.
It is like it start to do "Conveyor belt" with different memories and it is impacting my emotions and anixety. I sort of wish I didn't ask for the records in the first place but I did ask so I can know more about what happening to me. The reason is that I am not able to remember and wanting to find out.
Right now, I feel pain and has crying spills. I felt that I could not share this with anyone too details. I noticed that I have been distant and not feeling want to be around people at work. A co-worker started to push button on me and I get flashback then become feeling nervous more and more. This person sort of threaten to have supervisor to come in to discuss about my behavior. This co-worker who threaten me thinks I have problem with person, and telling me to stop behave like this front of client, and tried to tell correct me. I felt that the approach is not appropriate. The co-worker seemingly does not understand and I could not tell.
Right now, Every time I see this co-worker, I become nervous and scared. I caught myself avoid eye contact toward this co-worker. I also had feeling that the co-worker is watching me (I could be wrong but I have seen it in side of my eyes).
I wish this co-worker is like another co-worker such as "Are you OK?"
Another co-worker does noticed and asked me "Are you ok?" I said No, I'm not OK and too much in my mind. I got package from mom and I told this co-worker I cried. My co-worker offer to chat tonight and took easy on me.
I could not share about this and I already told my supervisor about it little bit before I got package. We was planning on to get together to open up about it.
Any feedback would be appreciate
Ok I am here to put a thread and I don't know what to do next.
What have I experienced is anixety and mixed emotions since few days. I got a package from my mom and it contains some records of my childhood. Yes, I read them and I called my mom. Of course, I got some more information from my mom that lead me feeling too much overwhelmed with my childhood, anger, and then flashbacks came back on me.
It is like it start to do "Conveyor belt" with different memories and it is impacting my emotions and anixety. I sort of wish I didn't ask for the records in the first place but I did ask so I can know more about what happening to me. The reason is that I am not able to remember and wanting to find out.
Right now, I feel pain and has crying spills. I felt that I could not share this with anyone too details. I noticed that I have been distant and not feeling want to be around people at work. A co-worker started to push button on me and I get flashback then become feeling nervous more and more. This person sort of threaten to have supervisor to come in to discuss about my behavior. This co-worker who threaten me thinks I have problem with person, and telling me to stop behave like this front of client, and tried to tell correct me. I felt that the approach is not appropriate. The co-worker seemingly does not understand and I could not tell.
Right now, Every time I see this co-worker, I become nervous and scared. I caught myself avoid eye contact toward this co-worker. I also had feeling that the co-worker is watching me (I could be wrong but I have seen it in side of my eyes).
I wish this co-worker is like another co-worker such as "Are you OK?"
Another co-worker does noticed and asked me "Are you ok?" I said No, I'm not OK and too much in my mind. I got package from mom and I told this co-worker I cried. My co-worker offer to chat tonight and took easy on me.
I could not share about this and I already told my supervisor about it little bit before I got package. We was planning on to get together to open up about it.
Any feedback would be appreciate
