enterthechair
New Here
A lot of the time, I avoid conversations or prefer not to answer things because telling people information can cause me to feel triggered if they bring it up again. I feel like whenever I open myself up to people, I regret it and feel stupid.
Like if I tell someone I have a date, a job interview, or some kind of social event. And then, for whatever reason, things don't work out. Then every time someone brings that up, that replays in my head.
Like if a job interview doesn't work out, I re-experience jobs I've had in the past, or I vividly remember the 100+ jobs that rejected me and I start to feel worthless. Then, I get 4 people ask me "how is XYZ going?". Those people have good intent; they care about me and want to start a conversation. But it makes me repeat those feelings a few times.
I'm okay with accepting failure. I'll take the loss. But when I do I just want to accept it, learn from it and move on. I feel when it's constantly being brought up again when I just want to move on.
I feel like maybe I should have some kind of rules. I'll only tell people about someone I'm dating until we've had like 3 or 4 really solid dates. I'll only tell someone about a job when I'm hired and fill out the paperwork. I'll only tell someone about a social event or a vacation like after it happened.
Like if I tell someone I have a date, a job interview, or some kind of social event. And then, for whatever reason, things don't work out. Then every time someone brings that up, that replays in my head.
Like if a job interview doesn't work out, I re-experience jobs I've had in the past, or I vividly remember the 100+ jobs that rejected me and I start to feel worthless. Then, I get 4 people ask me "how is XYZ going?". Those people have good intent; they care about me and want to start a conversation. But it makes me repeat those feelings a few times.
I'm okay with accepting failure. I'll take the loss. But when I do I just want to accept it, learn from it and move on. I feel when it's constantly being brought up again when I just want to move on.
I feel like maybe I should have some kind of rules. I'll only tell people about someone I'm dating until we've had like 3 or 4 really solid dates. I'll only tell someone about a job when I'm hired and fill out the paperwork. I'll only tell someone about a social event or a vacation like after it happened.
