Now I Can Panic!

[Megan]

Now...I can start to panic. :(
Right now it is 11:37pm and I woke up at 11pm. Tried to go back to sleep but there's no sleep button. I also don't feel like me! I woke up and don't remember my past! At all. I know i went to school but I don't remember phsyically being there. I have no friends and my parents are no help. I am starting to panic because i can't sleep don't enjoy anything and now i just can't remember my past. :(

I NEED HELP.
Does anybody know how i feel?
HELP.....:'(

 

[Megan]

*UPDATE*
Yesterday night was a really bad one for me. :(
I went to bed early because I kept having flashbacks. My entire life flashes before my eyes which are good ones but i really wish they would stop. But then as I woke up i felt like I couldn't remember anything and ended up catching parts of "Space Cowboys" or whatever the space movie is with clint eastwood, and tommy lee jones. Today was a little better. I actually got out of the house and did something. I took pictures.

But my life just isn't where i want it to be, nor do I know where I want it to be is a question. Do i want to get married have kids? I don't know. I still act like a pretty big kid myself and really am questioning life. life used to be good for me and now it's just not. I have no future. my brain always feels fuzzy. I have no friends and I'm 25 years old. The older i get the harder it is to make friends. :(. That's what I think because it wasn't easy for me to make friends in school so i highly doubt it is easier for me now.