Now What? I Just Want To Run But Nowhere To Go, He's Worn

[Srain]

Bad bad day yesterday and my h has had a bad week so not calling or texting to let me know he was going to be late last night again was a breaking point for me. I hate waking up in late at night and he's not home with no idea where he is. It's hours later than he thought it would be and I'm in a terrible space.

My mind goes nuts and I had words with him this morning feeling totally discounted and he blows back at me. I got it, he is stuck between a rock and a hard place and I am making it worse, I am pushing him away...well he left.

I pushed everyone away and now what???? I am starting to feel nothing.....I want to leave but go where?? I HATE IT HERE and here is MEEEEEEEE :cry:

 

[Zipperhead]

Hope today finds you in a better place Srain. Text him and tell him how you feel. We don't read minds. He is probably hurting too.

 

[Srain]

Called tdoc, I'll try and figure out if I'm even capable of getting to the next step at this point. I packed and ready to go if I need to for a little while.

I appreciate what you say Zipperhead, I have to be saying things all wrong, I realized that. He needs space. I know is he wiped out. Thank you.