Is it possible to be so detached from yourself that you can't make out your own thoughts? Like say you're in an argument, and you can't make out what you want to say and you've got the on-the-tip-of-your-tongue kind of sensation, but you are thinking to yourself "why can't I make out what I want to say? I know it's there." and you just can't grasp it. It's almost hard for you to hear. But it's there. Yet at the same time, you can hear the voice in your head speaking to you. You can't make out what you feel but your voice labeled these things like 'horrible' 'oh god not this one' or 'it's been a while since I've had this'
At least, I hope this is being detached from myself, and not something else. I've always had the sensation of having a crowd behind my talking voice. This sensation finally went away for maybe an hour after I was able to process and face my emotions so that makes me think it's dissociation. I've yet to do it again and I couldn't 'hold' the ability to do that for very long. I feel insane and like my head is going to explode because I can't process what I'm thinking. So, anyone else have this type of on the tip of your tongue sensation?
At least, I hope this is being detached from myself, and not something else. I've always had the sensation of having a crowd behind my talking voice. This sensation finally went away for maybe an hour after I was able to process and face my emotions so that makes me think it's dissociation. I've yet to do it again and I couldn't 'hold' the ability to do that for very long. I feel insane and like my head is going to explode because I can't process what I'm thinking. So, anyone else have this type of on the tip of your tongue sensation?