Overwhelmed And Lacking Confidence

[Trinomial]

I'm feeling more and more like I've bitten off more than I can chew.

I commute an hour to and from college every day. I'm taking 13 credits this semester, three of the classes are Psychology courses, each is a very different aspect--one is basically the bio/physiology of sensation and perception, another is a bunch of theories on cognition, the other class is about consumer behavior and has a lab. Plus I'm taking a history course and doing a work-study.

I am always busy. I feel like my day consists of waking up before I am ready, fighting traffic to get to school early in the morning, enduring lectures, reading, writing, studying, preparing dinner when I get home, studying some more, and going to bed. I am miserable.

I have to read a lot and re-read. I have trouble concentrating in general, couple that with dyslexia and the boringness of long technical dribble out of text books...

I spend 10 hours a week driving to and from school. I could really use those 10 hours a week for sleep or to study.

I have a lot of writing assignments. I have three exams over the course of two days next week.

I don't know what I want to do with my life. I never seem to finish what I start. Once I learn the principles behind something, I am ready to move on. I also realize that there is no right or wrong path as far as a major goes or a career goes--only missed opportunities, and consequences of the choices I make. The more psychology classes I take, the more I question why I am majoring in it. I hope graduate school isn't like this, and I question if I am even going to go to graduate school.

I'm working through trauma and grief in therapy.

And to top it off, I think I have some sort of flu. I feel so awful that I can barely focus on any one thing.

I'm feeling really overwhelmed and I don't have any confidence in what I'm doing for school or in general.

Despite that 98 on my exam last week, I feel like I am going to flunk right out this semester because I am stressed and unable to focus.

I don't know what to do. I just want to feel better.

So, I'm venting and crying a little. I hope that helps.

Now, I am going to log off and relax for a little bit...maybe grab something to eat. Then I will study some more.

I'm such a wreck right now.

 

[BloomInWinter]

((((Trinomial))))

Welcome!

May your troubles cease and fortune shine upon you.

You are not alone. Please, keep sharing.

Sending wishes for comfort, relief, and healing...

 

[Marie E.]

I'm with Bloom on this!

Is there a possible way that you can make some time for your self even if it be an hour? Than you can meditate, or use imagery to picture a peaceful place and just be in the present moment. Use some breathing techniques and make a list of what is most important, what can be put off for a while and things you can do without to make more time.

 

[Heather]

Hi Trinomial -

There's nothing worse than feeling overwhelmed and if you're sick on top of it that makes everything worse. I thik you need to look at things from a realistic point of view. If you got a 98 on your test you are NOT going to flunk out.

I also think it is normal not to know what you want to do with your life. My therapist said he changed his major 7 different times before he finally decided on social work. If you are that unhappy with psychology is it to late to change your major? Why do something that you are not happy with? Only you can decide what's right for yourself.

I strongly encourage you to stay in school and complete your education and get your 4 year degree. Financially, your life will be soooo much easier. I wish I had finished mine. I am a single mom and it's very hard to make a living w/o a degree, the pay scale is low (very low).

Hang in there. I know you can do it! Take care of yourself. Heather

 

[Trinomial]

Thanks everyone.

I'm mostly concerned with the fact I can't seem to concentrate. It turns out that I have a sinus infection. I've been alternating between motrin and tylenol, trying to keep the pain to a minimum--but I can't read for more than 5 or 10 minutes at a time. I am very unprepared for the exams coming up tomorrow and Tuesday.

Add to that the fact that both my car and my husband's car are decommissioned. I dropped his car off at the dealership for an oil change and told them that I smell gas when it's idling. They found a leak and they told me I was very fortunate that it didn't ignite while I was driving, because it was leaking onto the engine. My car's service engine light came on while I was driving home from school on Friday.

So I have to be driven to and from school the next couple of days until both cars are fixed.

When it rains, it pours.

I do meditate, before bed. It helps me fall asleep sometimes. But right now, it's hard to do. All I feel is pressure and pain in my head and the burning in my chest.

I am just going to finish the degree in Psychology because it's applicable to so many careers. I can't afford to change my major. I go to a private school that costs about $16-17k per semester, and if I take two classes this summer and go full time, I'll be done in a year. I can't keep racking up debt with student loans.

The 98 on my other exam was just lucky, because it was open note (which was a surprise) and I only had the one exam to study for. Three exams in two days is too much. I'm overloaded.