lol on the fire rescue, now that's funny. I had to call ems after watching eight seconds of Schindlers List, real bad one smells too, flesh on fire, ewwwww, makes my stomach sick just writing it, ems had to restart my heart, it wanted to tick to a weird screaming meme group type band, slow fast flatline etc.
The pains are awful, I know, I once could not get out of the bed I laid down in when I started a flashback, I usually would never lay down, I had no choice, the pain whacked me like the boulder of the past that was sitting on top of the explosives, purposely place, knowing full well one of us would get hurt, hello, it was me that day.
I couldn't move for what seemed like hours, in the flashback I was trying to get to my brother who was also wounded, his eyes wouldn't open, so I stayed in that state til full circle and my brother and I were freed.
Don't remember who did the removing of us, but I do remember when his eyes opened, phew,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,it seemed like it took forever, but once again, I was assured he was safe and alive for now, back then.
Sorry you have to go thru that too veiled, its no fun at all, I tell ever medical professional the same thing, I would rather die then go thru a boomer, (major flashback like that one)
I don't know if any or none understand why I say it, but I say it non the less to let them know how seriously I hate flashbacks.
anyway, thanks for sharing, helps to know I am not the only one,,,,,,,you gave me a bandade without knowing it, thanks,,,,Donna-Lynne
