Hey everyone,
I'm reaching out to this group today in search of support and understanding. I want to share a part of my personal journey and seek your advice on dealing with some difficult circumstances.
In my upbringing, I was both subjected to and witnessed emotional abuse and experienced physical violence in my home. My so-called parents never showed me love or affection, and it has left deep emotional scars that continue to affect me today. As a result, I have been diagnosed with Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD), and in my life, I have also experienced multiple abusive relationships, where I have been the victim, never the aggressor.
Currently, I am in a relationship where I am enduring emotional abuse, including verbal attacks, manipulation, and belittlement. My spouse consistently engages in passive-aggressive behavior, often viewing themselves as the victim instead of recognizing the harm they are causing. Their anger and frustrations are frequently directed at me, leaving me feeling constantly on edge and invalidated.
Although I thought I had learned from past relationship mistakes, it has become evident that I am repeating patterns. This realization has been disheartening, as I genuinely believed I had grown and evolved. It's a painful reminder that healing is not a linear process.
It's important to note that my health issues began prior to my current relationship. I have been managing multiple health conditions, including MS and thyroid disease, for some time now. Interestingly, there is no history of MS or thyroid disease in my immediate family, which suggests that my MS is likely influenced by environmental factors rather than genetics. Only recently have I come to understand that my CPTSD may have played a role in the development of my MS, as trauma can have a significant impact on physical health.
In recent events, my spouse accused me of competing over a headache, even though they mentioned having one first. This misunderstanding highlights the communication challenges we face and the difficulty in having a healthy conversation.
Both my spouse and I work from home, which adds another layer of complexity to our dynamic. The constant proximity and blurred boundaries can intensify the emotional strain and make it even more challenging to find a healthy balance.
I'm reaching out to this group because I believe in the power of support and empathy from those who have experienced similar hardships. Any advice, insights, or suggestions on navigating this difficult situation, healing from past trauma, and prioritizing my well-being would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post. Your understanding and support mean a lot to me.
I'm reaching out to this group today in search of support and understanding. I want to share a part of my personal journey and seek your advice on dealing with some difficult circumstances.
In my upbringing, I was both subjected to and witnessed emotional abuse and experienced physical violence in my home. My so-called parents never showed me love or affection, and it has left deep emotional scars that continue to affect me today. As a result, I have been diagnosed with Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD), and in my life, I have also experienced multiple abusive relationships, where I have been the victim, never the aggressor.
Currently, I am in a relationship where I am enduring emotional abuse, including verbal attacks, manipulation, and belittlement. My spouse consistently engages in passive-aggressive behavior, often viewing themselves as the victim instead of recognizing the harm they are causing. Their anger and frustrations are frequently directed at me, leaving me feeling constantly on edge and invalidated.
Although I thought I had learned from past relationship mistakes, it has become evident that I am repeating patterns. This realization has been disheartening, as I genuinely believed I had grown and evolved. It's a painful reminder that healing is not a linear process.
It's important to note that my health issues began prior to my current relationship. I have been managing multiple health conditions, including MS and thyroid disease, for some time now. Interestingly, there is no history of MS or thyroid disease in my immediate family, which suggests that my MS is likely influenced by environmental factors rather than genetics. Only recently have I come to understand that my CPTSD may have played a role in the development of my MS, as trauma can have a significant impact on physical health.
In recent events, my spouse accused me of competing over a headache, even though they mentioned having one first. This misunderstanding highlights the communication challenges we face and the difficulty in having a healthy conversation.
Both my spouse and I work from home, which adds another layer of complexity to our dynamic. The constant proximity and blurred boundaries can intensify the emotional strain and make it even more challenging to find a healthy balance.
I'm reaching out to this group because I believe in the power of support and empathy from those who have experienced similar hardships. Any advice, insights, or suggestions on navigating this difficult situation, healing from past trauma, and prioritizing my well-being would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post. Your understanding and support mean a lot to me.