DharmaGirl
VIP Member
You need to see a sleep specialist. There may be physical things going on too, have you considered one of the drugs to help nightmares. They have found that some blood pressure pills work and you need the sleep now. You don't withdraw from them and you don't have to take them forever, but it would be so helpful overall to have restful sleep, which is kind of hard to get with active symptoms. There are also some lucid dreaming techniques that are helpful, maybe your therapist knows about these. I'm sorry you are going through all this. It is not an easy life, and it wasn't your fault. Only you can make it better.