Poppycocteau
Bronze Member
Last night I was watching a programme about eating disorders, specifically to help myself get better with everything. Usually I just cry and/or get very angry/bitter and argue with Adam about something or other when I do this. This time, however, I ended up having a panic attack. I think this was because I was also quite stressed about the fact that the washing machine has broken - again! - and the landlady is refusing to pay for laundrette costs like she usually does. I was also having intrusive thoughts about a) my eye being sucked out by a hoover attachment and b) losing control and biting cutlery until I smash my teeth to stumps. All of these things combined and I had a panic attack. I feel sad and ashamed whenever something like this happens, because I feel it to be a setback in my progress, though I know it's unreasonable to expect to be better quickly, as hard as I might try.