Panicking 24/7

[Megan]

It feels like i am panicking 24/7. It's like a hold my breath for a few seconds longer then usual and let it go. It is like this practically every day. I think it's panic and I know why I'm panicing but it is irrational (i think).

I have always depended on my parents for mostly everything I need after the incident. Prior to the incident that left me w/ ptsd i was able to go to work and be "me" but afterwards I am in pure panic w/o rest most of the day. Only goes away when I sleep. I panic because I am worried my parents are going to die... I know they will one day. but i'm panicing now because after the incident I haven't been a people person. When i was younger I loved meeting new people while my parents are around but when it was only me, I would still talk but question what i said. But anyway.

I panic and fear that they will die sooner then later...:(. I can't lessen the fear. I have trouble going past cemeteries now a days and i just picture the funeral in my head. Not that I'm thinking about it on purpose. It just comes to me out of no where. I think it also has to do with my life flashing before me and not know what is to come. I don't like anything any more and pretty much feel like i'm doing the same thing every day. I have no motivation to meet new people although my dad is "pushing" me to. He doesn't understand.

When I developed PTSD i lost my sense of imagination which was the only thing getting me through the days even though i knew it wasn't real and could talk to people easier then i do now. :(.

I just don't think I can live like this any more. But don't worry. I fear death and pain so i'm not going to do anything...but it feels like my life is already over.

 

[alleycat]

Hi Megan. Welcome to the forum. :)

I feel that same way a lot, especially when I'm insanely stressed over something. Try to find a distraction (especially someone who will keep you distracted) and stick with it, try to turn your mind to whatever that distraction is when your mind wanders back into obsessive thinking.

Not saying it always works but it does work sometime and that can give you the little bit of relief you need to get through the day.

 

[Elisacullen21]

Welcome to the forum :)

 

[Gamereign555]

It sounds like classic anxiety breathing. The actual muscles in your chest and diaphram will tighten up and make you feel like you are already needing another breath even before you have exhaled fully. Kind of makes your lungs feel permanently over inflated but still not getting enough air. It's a sign your feeling anxious, use your coping skills and distract. Also make sure you can feel/see your stomach rise when you take a breath, I hear it is breathing in through the chest that can make it worse. You are clearly in a heightened state of anxiety and panic which sucks.. I know how that is, to be out of breath and scared for months. Medication like Xanax, Valium or Ativan will pretty much annihilate the anxiety breathing in my experience but is not something you can just pop whenever you want...

You should try to see a therapist, the anxiety and panic and racing thoughts can take a serious toll on our minds if we aren't mindful of how we deal with it. I heard that a lot of us can get OCD like behaviors if not careful.. you might even need some strong medication to give your mind a break from it all... I wouldn't say it's the answer but we can't all be in pain all the time.