Ok, I am almost embarrassed to post this and I have never heard of anything quite like this. I have not known whether to laugh or cry about what happened.
Last week end while at my max stress level, I got a call from a trouble making relative spewing venum. I was way beyond full on the stress cup. I was already at a point of chronic stress with divorce, finances, etc. Although I try to maintain forgiveness, I was hating my ex that day, and had said to a friend that he would not notice if my ass was on fire because of how avoidant he is.
That night I went to bed like any other night. I dont fall asleep easily and have to take xanax and it was likely late. I dream of problems, work, have nightmares. I woke up off and on but was so tired from stress I just stayed in bed most of the day. Until my doorbell rang and my dogs were barking. First I planned to ignore (salesperson or something) but then came pounding. I went and answered and it was police. They said I left my daughter a scarey message about my ex husband. Then I remembered dreaming that he was on fire----but I was hesitant to put him out. He was running across his farm on fire and I wanted to run and help but then thought that if I did he would never give me the divorce. I also thought it was maybe a trick because he told me he bought a new gun and he would shoot me if I got near. I was very afraid and was yelling for help but I just stood there froze...and ashamed.
Well evidently during my dream, I actually called my daughter and said that he was on fire and I might have lit him on fire myself and that I did now know and should I go and check on him and then went back to sleep. My daughter did not listen to the message for many hours and when I did not answer she tried calling him, who also never answers calls and after hours she became afraid and called police. The officer asked her if I was on crack. OMG. I listened to the message and the words were not slurred, I was just scared to death you could tell. So now the officer at my house quizzed me about the date and time and such and told me not to do this. The problem is-I did not know that I did.
Days later I went to therapy and told my therapist. She said that in one of my past sessions that she asked if I used something unusual or took too much of something, she thinks it was the same state-that I just was not me after talking to me, and that I was in an altered state. I admit I felt out of body that day. After therapy, I began telling my other daughter what my therapist said. She told me that she ran into a friend of mine and he asked if I was alright. He then told her we were suppose to have lunch on day about a month ago and the morning of, I called him at 6 am confused and told him a mutual friend was dead and for him to come over and that I did not know how it happened. (I must have dreamed that but dont recall I have so many bad ones). He described the same state.
I googled information and found parasomnia but none of this really makes sense to me. I know I have done things on Ambien that I do not remember-that is why I refuse to take it. I sleep walked as a child and one daughter also did. It says that it runs in families.
I find this very frightening. Then I try to use humor to minimize as there is nothing else I can do until I see my therapist again. Information said that people return to sleep in a few minutes but they are between wake and sleep states. I guess one could find themselves driving then. It says that many eat in their sleep and do not understand weight problems.
If anyone has any experience or knowledge of this please do let me know. Even if you dont, your comments are welcome. I am really confused and appreciate your reading this lengthy post. Thanks
Last week end while at my max stress level, I got a call from a trouble making relative spewing venum. I was way beyond full on the stress cup. I was already at a point of chronic stress with divorce, finances, etc. Although I try to maintain forgiveness, I was hating my ex that day, and had said to a friend that he would not notice if my ass was on fire because of how avoidant he is.
That night I went to bed like any other night. I dont fall asleep easily and have to take xanax and it was likely late. I dream of problems, work, have nightmares. I woke up off and on but was so tired from stress I just stayed in bed most of the day. Until my doorbell rang and my dogs were barking. First I planned to ignore (salesperson or something) but then came pounding. I went and answered and it was police. They said I left my daughter a scarey message about my ex husband. Then I remembered dreaming that he was on fire----but I was hesitant to put him out. He was running across his farm on fire and I wanted to run and help but then thought that if I did he would never give me the divorce. I also thought it was maybe a trick because he told me he bought a new gun and he would shoot me if I got near. I was very afraid and was yelling for help but I just stood there froze...and ashamed.
Well evidently during my dream, I actually called my daughter and said that he was on fire and I might have lit him on fire myself and that I did now know and should I go and check on him and then went back to sleep. My daughter did not listen to the message for many hours and when I did not answer she tried calling him, who also never answers calls and after hours she became afraid and called police. The officer asked her if I was on crack. OMG. I listened to the message and the words were not slurred, I was just scared to death you could tell. So now the officer at my house quizzed me about the date and time and such and told me not to do this. The problem is-I did not know that I did.
Days later I went to therapy and told my therapist. She said that in one of my past sessions that she asked if I used something unusual or took too much of something, she thinks it was the same state-that I just was not me after talking to me, and that I was in an altered state. I admit I felt out of body that day. After therapy, I began telling my other daughter what my therapist said. She told me that she ran into a friend of mine and he asked if I was alright. He then told her we were suppose to have lunch on day about a month ago and the morning of, I called him at 6 am confused and told him a mutual friend was dead and for him to come over and that I did not know how it happened. (I must have dreamed that but dont recall I have so many bad ones). He described the same state.
I googled information and found parasomnia but none of this really makes sense to me. I know I have done things on Ambien that I do not remember-that is why I refuse to take it. I sleep walked as a child and one daughter also did. It says that it runs in families.
I find this very frightening. Then I try to use humor to minimize as there is nothing else I can do until I see my therapist again. Information said that people return to sleep in a few minutes but they are between wake and sleep states. I guess one could find themselves driving then. It says that many eat in their sleep and do not understand weight problems.
If anyone has any experience or knowledge of this please do let me know. Even if you dont, your comments are welcome. I am really confused and appreciate your reading this lengthy post. Thanks
