Welcome to the forum. You will find some fantastic people here who can be very helpful in finding what you need.
Your story is heartbreaking and inspirational, thank you for sharing a part with us.
This statement is significant! It is giant signal pointing you where you need to go. A lot of people hide their trauma for many years and focus on building a successful life. This is one positive side effect of trauma. The past trauma can actually be used as a motivator to push one to be successful.
In my case, the trauma generated fear that I used to push myself into being more successful. Once I reached a point of safety in life I found that the past I assumed was long gone was with me every day. Trauma leads to a sense of unworthiness that can not be erased by personal accomplishments. Your past was always with you, you were just distracting yourself with other things.
Stories of people who rise out of the ashes of challenge to achieve success are abundant and very motivating,I love reading them. It is the human spirit at it's best. However, some of the most successful people in the world eventually find themselves right where you are, needing to deal with the biggest challenge of their life. I applaud your success and admire you. Most people with your childhood could not do what you have done, you are an inspiration. But success does not erase your childhood and what happened.
You have risen above your past and achieved success in the material world. It takes an amazing soul to do what you have done. It looks like you are finally in a place in your life where you feel safe enough to start working on your challenges in the emotional world. Your feelings you have of suicide are your wake up call, your inner self saying there is work to be done. This is something that college degrees, better home, better cars or anything material can not fix. This requires emotional/spiritual growth.
You will find great advice and open minds on this forum, I hope you use them as you grow. There is a better life waiting for you on the other side of this challenge. Love and respect to you.
Your story is heartbreaking and inspirational, thank you for sharing a part with us.
This statement is significant! It is giant signal pointing you where you need to go. A lot of people hide their trauma for many years and focus on building a successful life. This is one positive side effect of trauma. The past trauma can actually be used as a motivator to push one to be successful.
In my case, the trauma generated fear that I used to push myself into being more successful. Once I reached a point of safety in life I found that the past I assumed was long gone was with me every day. Trauma leads to a sense of unworthiness that can not be erased by personal accomplishments. Your past was always with you, you were just distracting yourself with other things.
Stories of people who rise out of the ashes of challenge to achieve success are abundant and very motivating,I love reading them. It is the human spirit at it's best. However, some of the most successful people in the world eventually find themselves right where you are, needing to deal with the biggest challenge of their life. I applaud your success and admire you. Most people with your childhood could not do what you have done, you are an inspiration. But success does not erase your childhood and what happened.
You have risen above your past and achieved success in the material world. It takes an amazing soul to do what you have done. It looks like you are finally in a place in your life where you feel safe enough to start working on your challenges in the emotional world. Your feelings you have of suicide are your wake up call, your inner self saying there is work to be done. This is something that college degrees, better home, better cars or anything material can not fix. This requires emotional/spiritual growth.
You will find great advice and open minds on this forum, I hope you use them as you grow. There is a better life waiting for you on the other side of this challenge. Love and respect to you.
