What makes the MyPTSD site so special to me? Well... there are a few members here who will remember me, I've been a member for almost 3 years now, but have become less active of late. Why have I become less active? Well, because I have learned to cope. Thats why.
I am a supporter.
I came here when my world had fallen apart. I didn't have a clue what I was going to do. Suicide did seem like a good idea at one stage, I came close, but luckily I realised that I still had things to live for. I went through absolute hell; depression, anxiety, insomnia. The most incredible shrink came to my assistance, and with hard work, no, make that bloody hard work, I beat the anxiety. I beat the insomnia. And I beat the depression.
Only once I had sorted myself out, was I able to start comprehending what the love of my life was going through as a PTSD sufferer. And she had it really bad. I found this forum, and through it, and the information that Anthony had put up regarding PTSD, and through some wonderful people here, both supporters and sufferers, I started learning about the beast that is PTSD.
I studied, and I spoke. I got advice, I got support, and I got encouragement. Lots of encouragement, that inspired me to keep going and to keep learning how to be a supportive supporter. This forum became my refuge. I quite literally lived here. But I knew that someday I would have to fly the nest, and stand alone. But also knowing that I could always return if I needed to. Much like going home to mom and dad.
My life HAS turned around, and a lot of the credit for that has to go to this forum, the people who run it, the friends I made here, and the incredibly valuable information I gained from it.
I do still pop in from time to time. Sometimes I re-read my diary, just to remind me of where I used to be, to remind me how far I have come. To remind me when I'm feeling a bit down how bad things can be, and to show myself that things are not as bad as I think they are.
So thats why this site is so special to me.
It helped me to get my life back.