Pray to die

[Lynnet]

I have to stay live and struggle for about 20 years, then I can pray to die everyday, every single second.
This is my responsibility to take care of my parents, too bad I can’t die now.
I have enough time for the next 20 years to live on this hell, just let the others to live longer, I don’t deserve it.
I won’t commit suicide, I wish I could donate my body.
Maybe I just need to suffer another 20 years, hopefully.
My life ain’t shit anyway.
I f*cked up. I f*cked everything up.
I useless.

 

[Deleted member 541]

What you are feeling and saying, just isn’t real. You probably didn’t f*ck up, your not useless and your life isn’t shit either. This is skewed thinking and depression talking.

Are you in therapy????? If not please find a way to get some help. Things can get better.