Prescription Narcotics

[BlueOrange]

Two weeks ago, a kidney stone started making its way out of my body, and the pain levels involved were (quite literally) staggering. I was prescribed a kind of morpheine, and have been taking it according to the instructions, as little as I can.

It's scary, because I've been able to work and socialize and exercise - pretty much everything that I berate myself for not doing. I feel like I'm dependent on it, even though I'm doing everything I can to colour within the lines. I had a day that was completely free of pain (I think it'd be fair to say I was high), and I really really liked that - it was great to take a holiday from all of the shit that flows through my brain, and all the pains that are in my body.

Will make an appointment with my GP for tomorrow, and have a psych appointment later in the week already. It'd be great to hear something reassuring!

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

I think it's great that you are working so hard to follow directions and take as little as possible. I've had abdominal pain and was on narcotics for awhile. A lot of the time the meds didn't get rid of the pain, but every now and then my system allowed it to work and it did feel good to just let the mind drift into that state of being pain free and not focused on inner turmoil either. Being cautious is good though. Glad you have appointments lined up.

 

[BlueOrange]

Talked a little in chat. Have a time for the GP appointment now. Feeling much more under control.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Maybe. Morphine Sulfate is an opioid, additcting, can become dependant etc. I took it along with a fentayal patch for years and its now in a pain pump thats inside of me.

As long as its sort term (and this sounds sort term) and you are aware that its highly addicting, and they tier you down then i think you'll be ok.

It is great, in my opinion, for chronic pain for this reason. Soon, you can take it and not feel high. Its why i did so well on it with the Fentyal patches.

 

[pixel]

So is the drug short-term, until you pass the stone?
Or are you getting further interventions on it?

 

[BlueOrange]

So it's short term. Spoke to the GP earlier today about my stressed-out state regarding the painkillers, and the ongoing pain. Am taking a small dose & am reassured that I'm not about to turn into an addict from taking one box of stuff according to the instructions of my doctor.

 

[Medication trade off]

This is the problem with these drugs. If you have PTSD/trauma you suffer chronic pain. The exact same thing happened to me when I went on painkillers, the pain went away and I could do things.

What pain? Fight or flight. Eating myself alive, that's what it feels like and that's just normal, without being triggered. I became symptomatic this week having been off my "med" awhile. It was awful. I had almost forgotten what it was like the grinding, clenching, chewing on something in my head until I'm exhausted and I can't make it stop. Late at night tossing and turning and in the car, at war with all the other cars lol.

Now comes the dilemma, medication management. Wouldn't it be nice to stay on those pills even after the kidney stones are gone? It becomes so easy to fall into taking them every day. That's how it starts. I am 100% in favor of medication. You are in fact, in pain (PTSD). but you have to be so careful. My advice is keep trying, find what works. It's dangerous, I'm not saying that, I don't take it lightly but, I don't take going off meds lightly either. It's serious!

I've been on Marijuana for a little over a year. It works for me without the side effects of the pillz. (there are side effects but I consider them minor by comparison) It is decriminalized here and will probably be made legal in Nov. If you do end up in trouble trying to kick you could try it. Good luck and be aware what you are dealing with. I believe all addiction is trauma based (my opinion) so I'd consider anyone, myself included to be vulnerable in your situation. I have been strung out on those pain meds more than once and it is not fun.

 

[BlueOrange]

It's now a week since I've taken any of the strong painkillers, so I'm willing to consider myself clean. Many thanks for all the support!

 

[Killashandra]

As part of my ptsd I suffer from many many headaches and migraines. A few years back I was prescribed oxycontin for a different ailment however I found that it also did wonders for those bad bad days, when I wake from the pain or can't go to sleep becasue of the pain etc.

However saying that I was on oxycontin for 3 mths continuously for my other ailment along with diazepam, after surgery I didn't need them any more and the doctor didn't say I could still take them so I didn't. I can't express enough the torment and pain and anguish I suffered from for 2 weeks after surgery, it wasn't the surgery that was the problem it was coming off those 2 drugs mainly the oxycontin. I was a mental mess and would often call my husband to calm me down when I was having a fit.

So please please please only use morphine or any narcotic carefully and not all the time. Especially for us sufferers as it doesn't mix well with our meds as it is.

I now use it sparingly like I said above for those bad bad days. Otherwise I just take paracetamol and codine or ibuprofen.

That's my 2cents.

All the best hugs

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

I was able to switch from narcotic pain killers to a more specified and non-narcotic one so I am feeling better about that.