Military Pts Rage And Violence

[0311]

No experience with that here, man. They didn't have WoundedWarrior when I was in. PTSD diagnosis meant either stepping up our rotation frequency, so we were kept off base/ out in the field (and therefore out of trouble) as much as possible... Or an OTH or big chicken dinner depending on how badly we were getting into it on base. More often, both. Eventually, at any rate.

I hope you do get that upgraded if you having already.

 

[Gunsmith]

Thank you for all the support everyone! I've been mia for a while so I thought I would check back in. I'm currently receiving excellent therapy in the form of a case study- New methods geared specifically for combat related Ptsd. My outbursts are less, my anger is fading and everyone around me notices positive change. I'm so glad I cowboyed up and got the help I need. If you're on the fence about it let me give you the push you need. We can come back.

 

[Sighs]

@Gunsmith - good to hear from you again and even better to hear you are doing well!

 

[joeylittle]

I'm currently receiving excellent therapy in the form of a case study- New methods geared specifically for combat related Ptsd.

Are you allowed to disclose what the protocols are? I'm a big fan of keeping up with the latest clinical trials.

And it's great to see you back and read that you are doing better!

 

[Gunsmith]

I'm receiving a combination of drugs and cognitive processing therapy. Sessions basically consist of logic and reasoning exercises to help the thinking part of the brain to overcome the feeling part of the brain. Per the therapy symptoms stem from maladaptive or problematic ideas or "stuck points." An example of a stuck point would be the belief "Everyone around me is dangerous". I'm supposed to identify the event the stuck point originates from, identify the consequence (how it makes me feel) then Challenge them. Are these feelings realistic? What evidence supports/challenges this? What can I tell myself in the future if the event happens again? Personally I'm a very logical person so I can't think of a better treatment for me.

 

[joeylittle]

Sounds really great, @Gunsmith - I'm glad it's working for you. I'm logical also, I totally get it.

 

[Gunsmith]

Hey all!

It's been a long time and a wild ride! Update- I eat pills like candy, suffer nightmares where I didn't before and have gained 15 lbs... But haven't lost my temper in weeks. I've continued weekly one on one sessions and as painful as it is progress is being made.
Haven't made it to WW yet, but it's still the plan. I've been placed on limited duty, and the end is definitely in sight. It's not the end I envisioned for my career, but you have to know when it's time. It's time for me to move on; there's no more killing left in me.
As much as I know this is the right call, I'm terrified! I've worn a uniform since I was 17... I'm totally institutionalized.

 

[Friday]

Word to the wise... Take advantage of all the transition stuff you can. It's a cold hard shock coming out, maybe in either case, but definitely if you make the mistake I did...to turn in my kit, 2 fingers in salute, about face and refused to look back. I was furious, hurt, and angry in my leaving. Hell of a lot of things I wish I'd done different. The Master Guns tracked my ass down a few weeks later ...smart man, gave me time to cool off... And probably saved my life. Hooked me into some work I could do, and that gave me time to decide to live. I was completely lost, otherwise. It was foolish and unnecessary of me. If you can avoid my mistakes? Do.

SemperFi

Sigh. Even when we don't wanna be.

 

[Gunsmith]

Words of wisdom!

Thanks Brother. I have a plan and am financially stable. My issue is I don't know how to be anything else. I grew up preparing for a career in the military and spent over half my life in uniform. The idea if being "normal" and simply punching a clock to earn a paycheck is as foreign to me as bacon to a rabbi. I don't interact well with civilians try as I may. Honestly I figured I'd be dead before it came to this but God has other plans.

Semper Fidelis

 

[scout86]

The idea if being "normal" and simply punching a clock to earn a paycheck is as foreign to me as bacon to a rabbi.

Never fear, there are lots of options out there that don't require being "normal" OR punching a clock. Abilities like being able to adapt, over come, and persevere come in handy in a lot of different ways.God's plans can be complicated, but at least there's a plan.

Best wishes for a happy future!

 

[RussH]

There are a lot of rabbis that eat bacon now:)

 

[SemperFidelisOregon]

I'm a little late on the draw but....

Gunsmith, I am thrilled you are getting results. What kind of meds did they stick you on?

My, now dead, marine husband of six years suffered from the rage. Unfortutnately it did get to the point of making my life a struggle for survival for four years. When people say "the war at home" I know exactly what they are referring to. And I survived it somehow. Medication was the miracle for my veteran....He was totally relieved of the rage and desire to hurt others. I have never experienced a gratitude so deep as those following two years of peace in our home.

So I share with you in your celebration and relief congratulations!