BlueWeepingRose
Confident
Anxiety will randomly come to me at the most random times, I have no idea where it comes from either. If people asked me what am I so nervous aboout... I literally have no idea why. My body will just shake and I keep myself guarded. There's times where I sort of sit very close together and keep myself closed off from everything and everyone. People getting way too close to me, freaks me out and if people walk next to me, I need space. Feel like I am being boxed in and closed in and sometimes I feel like screaming, but I never do. I truly have to trust someone in order for them to sit next to me or get close to me. This is why I am so closed off to the world. Nothing is going on around the room, but I feel so anxious and nervous and scared. This is PTSD. My body reacts and on guard constantly. The minute anything happens or I feel threatened by it, I will run away or remove myself from that situation. If a person says anything that freaks me out, I will walk away. If the person does anything that reminds me of my abusive ex, I will walk away. My body is always on guard and it get so draining. Sometimes I will need to take naps during the day because of the anxiety. So lately I've been meditating, drinking relaxing tea and removing caffeine from my diet, which has been helping me a lot. Recently I bought myself a worry stone and I rub it when I need too. This is something else that helps me out too.