armywife27
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My husband is an absolutely wonderful man, and from the first time we spoke we hit it off instantly. We began dating prior to his deployment in 2012 and I supported him through it all. He left the US a patriotic, starry eyed man eager to fight for his country. Even from a distance of 9000 miles I could tell a gradual change in him.
When he returned he had a hard time adjusting and has had a lot of issues both physical (constant headaches, sensitivity to light and sound) and emotional. The outbursts of anger began about 3 months after we got married and to describe it best...its been like a ball bouncing, getting more and more frequent and more and more angry.
Aside from times when the Hulk rears its ugly head we have a perfect marriage. And in times of clarity he has apologized profusely and begged me not to abandon him. He is a very big guy (6'7) and a trained fighter and active-duty infantryman. They had a reeeaaaalllllly bad deployment and as a result of the increasing anger (literally out of nowhere over the most insignificant things) I had begun to be afraid of him. He does not drink or medicate in any way. He had had terrible nightmares that got physical but he never hit me. I had been going to his command for the past several months trying to get him help and he has been seeking it since he got back.
Recently he had an outburst that scared me so badly I ended up calling the MPs. In retaliation he has left the house and stays in the barracks. I lost my job because we had one car-in his name before we married. We were supposed to be moving to Colorado in less than a month. I could no longer stay in that house with no money and surrounded by memories of the man Iove who just doesn't seem to be here anymore. He told me he hated me, did not want me in his life and that he wouldn't have these problems if I were not here. He says he is filing for divorce and has been so nasty! I love my husband more than anything on this earth and I do not know what to do. He has started taking meds but still doesn't seem stable.
How do I continue to fight for him? How do I make him see I'm on HIS side? And why can I just absolutely not accept it when he says he does not love me? I just don't believe him. Am I an idiot? ANY advice is greatly appreciated. I am heartbroken and scared that ill never see my husband again :'(
When he returned he had a hard time adjusting and has had a lot of issues both physical (constant headaches, sensitivity to light and sound) and emotional. The outbursts of anger began about 3 months after we got married and to describe it best...its been like a ball bouncing, getting more and more frequent and more and more angry.
Aside from times when the Hulk rears its ugly head we have a perfect marriage. And in times of clarity he has apologized profusely and begged me not to abandon him. He is a very big guy (6'7) and a trained fighter and active-duty infantryman. They had a reeeaaaalllllly bad deployment and as a result of the increasing anger (literally out of nowhere over the most insignificant things) I had begun to be afraid of him. He does not drink or medicate in any way. He had had terrible nightmares that got physical but he never hit me. I had been going to his command for the past several months trying to get him help and he has been seeking it since he got back.
Recently he had an outburst that scared me so badly I ended up calling the MPs. In retaliation he has left the house and stays in the barracks. I lost my job because we had one car-in his name before we married. We were supposed to be moving to Colorado in less than a month. I could no longer stay in that house with no money and surrounded by memories of the man Iove who just doesn't seem to be here anymore. He told me he hated me, did not want me in his life and that he wouldn't have these problems if I were not here. He says he is filing for divorce and has been so nasty! I love my husband more than anything on this earth and I do not know what to do. He has started taking meds but still doesn't seem stable.
How do I continue to fight for him? How do I make him see I'm on HIS side? And why can I just absolutely not accept it when he says he does not love me? I just don't believe him. Am I an idiot? ANY advice is greatly appreciated. I am heartbroken and scared that ill never see my husband again :'(
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