Ptsd, Medical Professionals

[Mami]

I am new to a forum, and I am not sure if this thread is a good fit for what I am going to write...

I was diagnosed as PTSD in 2010. It's been 2 years. I have been struggling, especially with negative relationships with medical professionals. They treated me very badly. Abusers are everywhere. It's sad, but they have a role of medical professional, but inside, they are abusers. My dad's role was a father, but inside, he was an abuser.

I got involved in many abusive relationships with abuser GP, psychiatrist and nurses.
I think many people with PTSD might have the similar experience with mine. They go to a treatment, but when they get a bad professional, they will not notice easily. To them, being belittled and treated unfairly are normal. They do not notice even when they are abused. I have been abused by my ex-physician, but I have not noticed for three months. That was really bad...

 

[Meadowsweet]

Would you be able to say what kind of abuse you're talking about please?

The reason I ask is because there are some very obvious abuses, like physical abuses.

But emotional or psychological abuse can be really difficult to recognise with ptsd that is due to family or other close relationships, because interacting in emotional circumstances has so many connections to abusive situations.

I think it can be useful to share what you're experiencing with people who aren't involved. They might say yes, that person is being abusive, get out of there. Or they might say, perhaps the person is triggering something within you. But its a good way of clarifying and getting support for your feelings.

 

[BloomInWinter]

(((((Mami)))))

Ex-paramedic/ER Tech, here.

I believe you. Lots of sick abusive people in the medical profession.

Hang in there! Good for you for seeing it and surviving.

 

[Dethuan]

Not the paragon of optimism today but hang in there.

 

[Jen93]

My T is emotionally abusive I think. She ignores me, deliberately makes me feel bad about my hearing loss, yelled at me, tells me not to cry, argues with me about what I'm talking about, and laughed at me when I dissociated and got confused. All my psych could say is "She knows what she's doing, she's good at her job." She'll weasel her way into the appointments with him too- it's no wonder I'm shaking whenever I'm in there with the two of them and can hardly say a word.

I thought that since my Psych said she knew what she was doing, maybe she was TRYING to make me "blow up" (get so angry that I yell at her), but I actually can't do that. It was drilled into me that I had to be careful with my words and that I couldn't get mad at anybody.

I still can't figure out if she's being emotionally abusive or if she's doing her job- I've written to her a list of all the things she did, how it made me feel, and the parallels to my trauma- she said she didn't read any of it and just handed it back to me- I was so upset; I took about an hour writing it and being triggered- she couldn't even bother to read it.

I trust my psych though, I really do, but if this is her job, I'm scared to go to my intake session in three weeks if this is what they're all like.

 

[justhere]

I don't think that's her job. I hate you're experiencing this. I would consider finding someone else to see. It's just an option. You don't deserve to be treated that way... I seen this counselor once and he was basically telling me I shouldn't be feeling the way I was. Not in the sense of, "its not your fault. " Basically saying there was no reason I should be hallucinating and hearing things. Trying to teach me about being a Muslim. I dropped him quickly, I was very uncomfortable. Especially at the fact that he down played what was wrong with me.

 

[Mami]

Would you be able to say what kind of abuse you're talking about please?

Yes, for example, I applied for Disability Support Program in 2012. My former physician, Dr. K, did not interview me or asked me questions when she filled out that application for me. As a result, she did not write my symptoms comprehensively. She is supposed to fill that form with me by asking questions...

I am thinking to report her in the future.

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[Meadowsweet]

Yes, for example, I applied for Disability Support Program in 2012. My former physician, Dr. K, did not interview me or asked me questions when she filled out that application for me. As a result, she did not write my symptoms comprehensively. She is supposed to fill that form with me by asking questions...

Thankyou for clarifying that.

I don't know if there is any more to this. But from the example you have given, this sounds like somebody who isn't very good at their job and has made an error.

Its understandable that you're upset and you do have reason to make a complaint about the way the application was filled in.

But I think that an abuser causes others pain and misery to fullfill their own perverted needs.

Whereas most of us, at some point in our lives, hurt others feelings un-intentionally, because we lack understanding, or make a mistake. And when/if we realise our mistake, we take responsibility and try not to do it again.

It can be that when we've experienced abuse from somebody we are expected to trust, everyone who lets us down after that is doing it deliberately and is another abuser about to repeat the same patterns.

It gets difficult to tell the difference, but I think part of recovery is going through the process of learning. So I think its worth checking with others, because learning how to judge people so that you can be safe is a positive.

 

[gypsydaydream]

After years of searching, I found an amazing therapist and GP who have started working together to help me. Keep looking...seriously, its hard to leave anyone (even a doctor) when you feel mistreated, but our judgment is skewed. If they take advantage of that, then they aren't doing their jobs. Report them. Its hard to tell the difference from anger and irrational thoughts...but on this issue its really important to listen to your gut instinct. Good luck :)

 

[gms1976]

My T is emotionally abusive I think.

Jen,

If your therapist is making you uncomfortable in ANY way at all, you need to change therapists ASAP. You need to run not walk to another therapist. Now. This is your life and your future and therapy has a massive influence on how that can change things. Therapy has to be a place where you feel safe and comfortable and thus allowing you to share how you truly feel and grow and learn and develope a trusting relationship. She sounds very cold and manipulating!

My therapist reads EVERYTHING I bring her. I work in the medical field (RN) and she often asks my opinion on general medical issues she isn't entirely sure about as she's a psychologist not a MD. She wants me to talk about everything and how I feel and such. She knows I need to communicate in a safe place so I can tell her what I need to, to process my thoughts. That is how we've worked out what some of my triggers are. The main thing is that it has to be a safe environment, place where you can let yourself relax and express how you really are feeling. A trusting relationship is so important when it comes to healing.

This therapist of yours is NOT doing her job. She sounds like a cold, calculating b***h! Get away from her as fast as you can. A therapist should NEVER admonish or belittle a person who is upset, crying or grieving in anyway. That's just being a bully! That's kicking someone when they're down. The fact you are shaking when you meet with both of them should be a huge red flag. Please, find anothe therapist if you can. I think she's doing more damage.

I admire your effort to write down what she does and enduring all the triggers as well! That's courage! That's amazing and that's determination. Take a hand in your future and find another therapist, please! You sound like an amazing person and deserve so much more. I'll support you in any way I can. Contact me if you need to.

Hugs

Gayle