PTSD or PTSS, That is the Question? Sexually Abused and Trauma from Childhood

[spiritofnow]

Hi Anthony

I guess I am all over the place with how this place works - just wanting to blurt things out! I can see what you mean in editorial terms - my tags are not specific enough - I guess I feel uncomfortable using such provocative tag lines in order for others to reach my words. I did feel like sh*t when isaw that no-one had commented on my trauma diary words as to me it confirms the negative thoughts that i have about myself - But I have got used to seeming like I am coping and don't need help. Anyway, I did not know
how to respond to you so i have done it this way - I hope I have not broken any rules?

Thanks

 

[spiritofnow]

Thank you waif12,
People are just so kind on here :-)

I was seeing a CBT therapist but he was moved to another hospital after only 3 months so now I am waiting for a further appointment. The original plan at my assessment was to receive CBT for up to a year and then that would be followed up by integrative psychotherapy. I feel a bit annoyed that I have waited for so long to be ready or to know how fix this stuff. Now I am waiting around again. However, I have made an appointment with my G.P who got me the intial assessment and is very sympathetic! The problem is that in the past I would seek help then I would experience a period where I managed life a bit better and would just go back into denial that anything was wrong with me. I need consistency in overcoming my symptoms etc.
You are so very lucky to be receiving such wonderful help.

Thank you

 

[sunnydaze]

Spirtofnow

Hello,
Sorry you are confused on what your diagnosis is. Many times it takes years before a T can get the right diagnosis. I wish I felt normal also. I also have been diagnosisted with dissociative/depersonalization. The nightmares I only seem to have are of my mother and sister. I was treated real bad by both. I always have the same dream of my mother and I fighting. The dream of my sister is me saying" I don't" like her" than waking up. We never got along when we were children, she has always been selfish taking what she wants from me, stealing from me. I took care of her the last 3 years while she had a stroke amoung other things and she still treats me bad. My chice is now to have very little contact with her. I am just coming out of a 3 month depression about her. No more! Hang in there this forum has many people to talk to.
sunnydaze

 

[spiritofnow]

Thank you sunny daze :-)

I hope that the journey that you are on offers you some peace - that's all I want is to not feel exhausted by everything all of the time

spiritofnow x

 

[anthony]

Hi Spirit, most new members need be pointed to the rules just so they know what is expected of them. Nothing major, typical actually. Please don't beat yourself up over it, its just editorial decisions, not personal. You learn as you go. Take care.... and enjoy please.