Question About Symptoms

[ex123]

Hi,
So I am sorta new to all of this, and currently scared. I just started therapy, for childhood abuse. After Fridays session, I don't remember much except lots of crying, which is scary for me because I felt like I lost all control in front of my therapist, and am scared to go back. Anyways since that session, I fell into a deep depression, where I haven't been eating a lot, and I don't know whether that's normal or not. Usually I love food, but I havent even had the emotional energy to get any. Also have been physically sick since that session, and I'm not sure why. I sorta am feeling like a crazy person over here, and its driving my anxiety through the roof!

 

[Muted]

I have the feeling of being exposed in front of t. the more trust there is the easier it is to deal with that if it's any consolation.

 

[Esterio]

Hi,
So I am sorta new to all of this, and currently scared. I just started therapy, for childhood abuse....

Hi ex123 thanks for the post
It sounds to me how I felt after my first session. It just goes that way I think. It is a lot of bad shit and it does make me physically sick I have lost all interests in food and Most everything else. It is a hard road to travel. So I just try to trust my T and go to the sessions. I'm sure I'm ready as I can't stop getting it out. It feels like I need to scream it out at the top of my voice. This is also my second attempt at therapy. I hope to be successful this time. I know it is going to be tuff, I hope it is worth it.
Be Safe Peace

 

[Swemoor]

Don't worry about losing control in front of your therapist, we all do, specially when we talk about that kind of situations and your therapist is there to help you

Take care of your meals, when I have a depression crisis I tend to stop eating I used to take olanzapine because I didn't feel hunger so I didn't eat anything.

Take care and good luck.

 

[anonymous]

I think a somatic response is common.

I am a little concerned that you got so upset so early in a relationship with your T, though. Make sure your T knows when to push and when not to. Leaving a session dissociated can be dangerous. I've had sessions like yours, and I've told my T that I needed a few "easy" sessions after that. I can't "go there" every session. It's too much.

 

[ex123]

I think a somatic response is common.

I am a little concerned that you got so upset so early in a re...

Thanks! And I think the reason I was so upset was also cause I had a bombshell of information dropped on me the weekend before from family, so overall I was overwhelemed!