Quitting Therapy.

[ms spock]

Whatever you do don't come off your medication cold turkey. Weaning off medication without medical supervision is very dangerous in my humble opinion.

Even weaning off medication with medical supervision and back on to medication under medical supervision I had a really rugged and difficult year last year.

I have some medication to use under my own disgression. But it has been thoroughly discussed.

 

[Barconian]

Hello @Secret... Just be careful how you go off your meds! Don't give up... Just try again :)

 

[digger]

I have told my therapist to keep my medication, that I'm a live, and that I'm not going to therapy any longer

What was her response to this?

I find it strange that you've so suddenly gone from feeling so unable to cope that you needed to sit at her office everyday (very recently) to now being able to manage without either therapy or meds - what changed?

Like others have said, stopping meds cold turkey is a bad idea (and makes me think this is an impulsive decision rather than one you've really thought through). If you really want to go it alone, coming off slowly will give you a better of chance of that being successful.

 

[digger]

I got a new doc today and she put me back on all the meds that were keeping me functional for 5 years! I get my zyprexa back, my Adderall quick release, my klonopin, my welbutrin, my ambien!! YIPEE!

Is it all of these meds you've just decided to stop?

 

[digger]

Today I spent the majority of time dissociated. I was at my therapist's office, and was able to be together enough to pick my son up from school. I didn't even have flashbacks last night. I'm so confused. I don't know where it is coming from. I'm so worried that I'll do it when my son is awake. He's almost 9, so he'd be really confused.

This is less than a week ago and you didn't know what to do - have you found a way to manage the dissociation on your own now?

 

[digger]

Less than a month ago your symptoms were so severe you were concerned about losing your son

I was just wondering if you can lose custody of your child(ren) because of severe PTSD. I have flashbacks where I think I'm being abused again.

Sorry if this is coming across as harsh, but I really think you need to think this through more.

 

[Barconian]

Digger1... Chill!!! Secret said that Secret was looking for an answer to a question!!!

 

[Angelwings]

I was triggered by my therapist and freaked. What triggered me? She was harsh with me about something...don't remember what, strangely enough, but she was harsh with me and it reminded me of getting in trouble with my dad, which triggered me. She was trying to help with whatever it was she was upset about and I wasn't willing to be talked to like that. I talked to her about it today and she apologized and said that if I need to work with someone else, that would be fine.

She gives me my medications so that I don't take them all at once, which has been a problem for me in the past. I asked her to do it, but now it just seems like she's being really controlling, which may be another trigger, because my dad is REALLY controlling. Sigh. You all make good points. I was being emotional, but am willing to explore working with another therapist if need be.

 

[ms spock]

She gives me my medications so that I don't take them all at once, which has been a problem for me in the past. I asked her to do it, but now it just seems like she's being really controlling,

You have to keep going back that you asked her to Secret. "I asked her to mind my medication as I take it all at once." You need to keep going back to "It is not about controlling me, it is about saving my life."

 

[Justmehere]

I asked her to do it, but now it just seems like she's being really controlling, which may be another trigger, because my dad is REALLY controlling. Sigh. You all make good points. I was being emotional, but am willing to explore working with another therapist if need be.

Have you told her that her actions not only triggered you but reminded you of your father? Maybe you have...

It would be really hard for me to let someone else hold my medications for me - but it is something I had to do at one point. I got triggered too along the way and I wanted to quit so bad. I finally told the therapist this, and it was really hard to do that but so helpful. Not just to stay what she did bothered me, but what it reminded me off in the past. They changed what they did so that it triggered me a lot less, AND we dealt with the past in a way where when someone is controlling, I have new ways to handle it that make me feel more in control and I don't get so triggered in the first place. Controlling people are still a-holes and all, they just don't get under my skin and scare me so bad that I check out...

I don't know if I am making any sense. I don't know what you should do, I'm just adding my perspective that I'm not seeing red flags to run in what you have described, but reasons to stay and work on it a little longer and then if it doesn't change to reasses and possibly quit. I could be really off the mark though. Maybe it is time to explore finding a new therapist, but that also may set you back.

And it's ok to be emotional - You have lots of good reasons to be emotional and upset and angry and triggered. And maybe good reasons to stay and not quit. Not just yet.