Hi Stilltrying,
Thanks for the post and of course for serving. I have just posted myself about my bf who's also an ex-soldier.
I've never known him to be this bad or filled with this much rage. He lied to me on Thursday afternoon, told me he was heading to Montreal for work, he stayed there for 2 nights. Something was fishy to me, I had found out that he didn't go at all. He fessed up, telling me that he has so much rage right now that he is afraid that he'll disassociate and harm me or worse and that's the reason he couldnt come home.
He did come yesterday but honestly I can tell just looking at him that he was clearly in over his head. I guess I triggered him, this sent him into a rage I have never seen in anybody. It really frightened me, so much I ran to our bedroom and locked the door. He left again, told me he needed to check into a hotel for the night as he was afraid once again.
He says that when he gets like this nothing can ground him, no walks, no workouts, no meditation, he just cannot calm down. There is no doubt that he'll have to admit himself into some sort of program, but first he'll need to get himself assessed again to see if he's safe to even live at home.
This is horrible, my heart aches for people who have to live with this type of pain. I hope that you can find solice somewhere.
Carmela
Thanks for the post and of course for serving. I have just posted myself about my bf who's also an ex-soldier.
I've never known him to be this bad or filled with this much rage. He lied to me on Thursday afternoon, told me he was heading to Montreal for work, he stayed there for 2 nights. Something was fishy to me, I had found out that he didn't go at all. He fessed up, telling me that he has so much rage right now that he is afraid that he'll disassociate and harm me or worse and that's the reason he couldnt come home.
He did come yesterday but honestly I can tell just looking at him that he was clearly in over his head. I guess I triggered him, this sent him into a rage I have never seen in anybody. It really frightened me, so much I ran to our bedroom and locked the door. He left again, told me he needed to check into a hotel for the night as he was afraid once again.
He says that when he gets like this nothing can ground him, no walks, no workouts, no meditation, he just cannot calm down. There is no doubt that he'll have to admit himself into some sort of program, but first he'll need to get himself assessed again to see if he's safe to even live at home.
This is horrible, my heart aches for people who have to live with this type of pain. I hope that you can find solice somewhere.
Carmela
