Girl i understand , goin for the holidAy will be good for you even if you don't feel like it. I don't know your story but, I will say this I'm 25 and my life is like six life time movies put into one, most of the story is so dramatic people wouldn't even believe it if I tried to tell them. I may be crazy but I'm far from a liar ! No matter what you have gone through I promise you can make it through