Sexual Assault Rape

[Rihanna]

I was twelve years old, and i was out with a friend and four guys grabbed us both. They screamed if we don't have sex with each other they'd kill us and they had guns. We tried to run bat they had trapped us in a dead end alley. Two grabbed me and two grabbed my friend. They ripped our clothes off. (wasn't on period thank god.) They forced my legs open and forced my friend into me. Then they held a gun to his head and said if you don't i'll shoot. He kept saying "I don't want to hurt her." I said "Do it I can't stand for you to die." He almost didnt and they were about to pull the trigger and i yelled do it now they are going to shoot. He did and they forced him to go hard and fast until we orgasmed and they ran away. We covered ourselves and promised never to tell anyone because if we did they said they'd make us again and then kill us.

 

[Lucycat]

Hi Rihanna,

I am sorry that you had this dreadful experience. How long ago was it? Many people are forced to keep sexual assault and rape a secret, and do so for a very long time for a number of reasons. I am wondering what it is that has made you want to share this with us at this time? Have you always wanted to share it, but couldn't find a way, or has there been some recent event in your life that has brought this to the surface and made you face it all over again?

How are you now?

Regards
Lucy x

 

[Rihanna]

It was almost two years ago. I've always needed to tell someone but I couldn't so I decided to tell people who don't know me. About how I am now, I have nightmares almost every night. My mom eve caught me mumbling "Don't die." In my sleep. I'm in therapy and so is my friend Brendan because he recently told his mom. She has actually taken me in and away from my mom because she did not really care in fact she yelled at me saying "Why would you let someone force you to have sex? I'm going to kill Brendan." And I'd heard a lot about how people are going to kill someone else so I fled the house and came to his house. Me and him have maintained a friendship because they took our virginity and much more but they won't damage our friendship

 

[Lucycat]

I am so pleased to hear that you are both in therapy. Hopefully that will help and the nightmares will become less frequent. I guess you already know that therapy is not a 'quick fix' and it will take a long time to recover, however it does get better little by little. Sometimes you have to force yourself to see progress.

It is good that your friendship with Brendan is stronger than this evil that was done to you both. I am also pleased to hear that Brendan's mother is being supportive to you both.

You are only 14 now? That is very young to be dealing with all this. I understand that your mother is not helpful, but do you also have any other family members that are there for you? Are you still in school and if so how is that going? It might be that your therapist can help you to get extra support in school if you need it. I am thinking that it must be hard to concentrate on studies when this is in your head all the time.

 

[Rihanna]

I am so pleased to hear that you are both in therapy. Hopefully that will help and the nightmares will become less frequent. I guess you already know that therapy is not a 'quick fix' and it will take a long time to recover, however it does get better little by little. Sometimes you have to force yourself to see progress.

It is good that your friendship with Brendan is stronger than this evil that was done to you both. I am also pleased to hear that Brendan's mother is being supportive to you both.

You are only 14 now? That is very young to be dealing with all this. I understand that your mother is not helpful, but do you also have any other family members that are there for you? Are you still in school and if so how is that going? It might be that your therapist can help you to get extra support in school if you need it. I am thinking that it must be hard to concentrate on studies when this is in your head all the time.

No, I've never had a lot of family, I have a cousin and my mom the rest are dead or I don't know them, CPS said for me to live with Brendan and his mom. Yes I am in school, it's going okay. I'm acing everything except science and P.E. I'm not athletic unless you consider dance athletic. I will be fourteen tomorrow and it will be two years on January 1st

 

[Lucycat]

Happy Birthday @Rihanna :dance:
I hope you have had a great day!

I'm acing everything except science and P.E. I'm not athletic unless you consider dance athletic.

Well done you! That is a great achievement and something to be very proud of. Dance can be quite athletic - or so they tell me. I am sort of a two-left feet person myself.:eek:

 

[Rihanna]

Happy Birthday @Rihanna :dance:
I hope you have had a great day!

Well done you! That is a great achievement and something to be very proud of. Dance can be quite athletic - or so they tell me. I am sort of a two-left feet person myself.:eek:

Thanks. All you have to do is practice. I'm now a cutter, but we are working on that one

 

[chant2012]

I am very sorry for what happened. It is a horrible experience. I am glad to hear that both you and your friend are in therapy though. It is hard to fathom how a parent can act like that... But my dad did too in a way. Regardless, I am sorry that it happened but am glad you are reaching out for support here. If you need anything, feel free to PM or something. Take care. I am glad you are somewhere safe. Blessings! ♥

 

[cherryblossom]

Hi @Rihanna - a slightly belated welcome to the forum, from me. :wave:

I'm sorry to hear what you and your friend went through. It's also sad to hear that your Mom wasn't able to support you. It's great to know that you have support from Brendan and his Mom.

Stick with therapy, and be as honest as possible with your therapist. You have already shown how strong and mature you are. You have been through an horrific ordeal, but you are coping brilliantly. Keep up the good work, because you have a very bright future ahead of you.